So January 7 2015 is a day forever i will not forget even saying 6:37pm. I was on the phone with my ex wife and we were talking about how our holidays were and Xmas was just like 2 normal people could have a phone conversation ( we were married for 14 years but separated in early 2014 but stayed friends) The scream she made when she discovered our 17 year old son had taken his life to the act of suicide was the day our lives changed forever..... He was a honour student, on the high school foot ball team, in the rock and and jazz band at school and was an amazing dancer ( he was offered a trip to go work with the circ du soli group) he also trained a lot with the dancers from so you think you can dance. So tonight I sit here and just ponder "why????" We didn't see signs, we didn't think he would ever do such a thing. Sure school pressure and life but not this. I just wanted to put my feelings out as I am so broken inside but try my hardest to have the positive face for our 14 year old son and everyone around me. His smile. His amazing heart to help others and ensure everyone is happy. His ability to fill a room of over 700 people at his service all because he touched each one. I just don't get it. <mod edit - guidelines> Thanks for letting me just vent.