Hello, my name is scott, im 25 years old, i used to have a job working as a courier for fedex, but a few months ago, i was arrested for a DUI because of some douche cop found weed in my car and decided not to cut me a break. A few months later, fedex found out about it and fired me as a result. Lately, i just feel like i have no reason to live in this world anymore, and the only reason i havent offed myself yet is because i wouldnt want to put my immediate family through the pain of me taking my own life. But even so, i just feel like im drifting through this world with absolutely no purpose, i screw up everything i do. I feel like ill never amount to anything in this life, and i just wonder what would happen if i just disappeared and never returned. I dont have many good friends to turn to, and most of the friends i do have, i feel would be burdened if i told them how depressed ive been feeling lately, and my motivation to be productive is being sucked dry by fatigue and depression. Its like, this society expects you to look and act a certain way and then judges you negatively if you dont live up to those expectations, and ive always felt like an outcast, like nobody wants me around, ivr been contemplating suicide alot lately as my will to live in this world is slowly being sucked away day by day, i just feel like i have nothing in this world to look forward to anymore.