There for a little while I actually had been feeling really good. I still feel okay but I can actually feel my mood doing a turn around and heading back to where I was not too long. I'm sure many of you know the kind of shape I was in. I'm starting to get back into the anxiety issues I had before. Except now it seems I have new things that trigger my anxiety that I didn't have before such as just being in the kitchen doing something when there is somebody else in there, one example of this is yesterday... I was extremely tired and had a bowl from my cereal I had just had...My fiance's grandpa was sitting in the kitchen and I couldn't bring myself to go in there to wash the bowl. I ended up staying awake for an extra 2 hours because of this. I just want to turn this back around for myself but I honestly don't see that happening. I know in a matter of time I will be back to not wanting to be around. I really wish there was something I could do but I don't think there is. And I know if I get back to where I was before I won't have the energy to fight it off this time around. Everytime my depression and suicidalness comes back its always worse than it was before.