I was just sitting here thinking that I should post a question that has been on my mind of late, because who better to answer it than you guys?? What do you do when people start to become annoyed with you when you show signs of "downhillage" ,as I like to call it? Mood getting lower or low, for example. Do you pretend to be happy/normal? Do you not mention it? Do you keep your mouth shut and hope that it goes away? Because I find that my SO doesn't want to hear or deal with it, with me anyway. He even becomes agitated/annoyed with me sometimes. I know that it is scary. I don't even know why he is still with me. I can't imagine trying to deal with this hell all the time...on the other end I mean. He has never had depression, so he doesn't know what it is like himself to suffer. This is what leads me into a downward spiral, though. When people don't understand or want to talk to me about it. I just suppress it and that eventually leads to my downfall and feeling alone and bad things. (insert commas wherever) I'm just tired of fighting this horrible thing for all these years. Bloody, bloody tired. Rant over.