The thing is... i never considered it a sacrifice.
I know the middle one is trying to make their life better. Becoming an EMT, n recertifying for that. Being a DJ, gaming, and currently attempting to work 3(ish) jobs: teaching first aid n CPR, renovating a hotel, n working at night stocking at a store. Also has great Goals and is working towards those goals.
Wow, if that is your definition of underachieving, or not having reached the pinnacle of succcess, like the rest, who are also high functioning, then I must say your standards are impressively high (at least for a mere moron & an imbecile like me!).
I got exhausted just half-way through reading that (list).
Well, it is a sacrifice, in comparison to how it would otherwise be. But I suppose your view is both proper, and right or correct, as well as rational in the sense that... you haven't got a choice. Short of abandonment, of some kind~ / So, as I said before, give yourself some credit, esp. if no one else around you is interested in doing so. They should be saying, "Thanks Mom!" A hundred-thousand, times a day... but I know that is not realistic.
And if you're thinking it might be wise or in your best interest to check yourself in, then I think you should at least go in there & have the evaluation done. Answer the questions openly and honestly. Then let them make the decision for you (which they will be happy to do). This way, it is - in a way - taken out of your hands. Yes, you can wait for conditions to be perfect. But matter of fact is, they probably won't, or ever will be. So at some point you've just got to make the decision to go in & get it done. It sounds like w/your exp. w/your daughter and her affliction, and in the system, as it were, as well as some of the feedback here (& you'll notice no one else who's chimed in has had anywhere near so bad as one as me - experience, that is...) you should be moderately prepared for what you're about to face. Should you be granted admittance. It's kind of like a movie, only not. In that it is not dramatized in that way. So to me, it sort of feels like it is, except that it is (in) real life. So sometime if you're sitting in there. Staring at everyone both workers & patients, or "inmates~,' then maybe you'll see waht I mean, and either agree or disagree. Of coures, I nad some additional reasons or factors to beliieve this way, that had to do more with groudns of ethics by or regarding certina staff & some of the things they were tryin gto pull on me. Unfortunatly I was not of so unsound a mind, to have the wool pulled over my eyes. So once again I am biased. And your trip, maybe be much (sunnier would be the inappropriat e or incorrect word). Different, as in better or good. Mor positive/prosperous & therefore overall beneficial. And as I said, if no-thignn else it is a wonderfu l "time-ou," on life & a chance to reset. Just ahve to desensitize a little bit, should the conditions inside be a bit more volatile than you're noramllly used to However w/the household you've run, and been exposed to , maybe the shock value won't be so high as it other wise might have been (w/o?)! ;D