I think there is just that one thing that keeps on hindering me from being very productive. I feel kind of bitter at everything. I have an attitude problem I never imagined I will be having before. Sometimes, I just tend to lash out on people who don't do anything wrong. Other times, I just find myself being sorry for my own fucking self. I always lack motivation to work. I cannot keep straight thoughts. I am beginning to suffer from depression again? I want to treat myself. I want to take medications or something just to get rid of this dreadful feeling. But is it possible to self-medicate? Can someone diagnose me right now? The stigma for mental disorders in our town is too strong. I do not want anyone to know I'm getting bad at it. I just need help. That's all.