Just wonderring since me and other on this forum have been here for a long time, what exactly makes you keep fighting? What or who makes you want to live and hopefully make a good change in your life sooner or later? Give us everything that makes you happy that keeps you alive today, maybe we can help eachother find positive things in life. For me its the fact that I know things kan change, and specially the phrase: "suicide is the long term solution to a short term problem" thinking about this phrase relly help me. Also I love outdoors specially Grand Canyon, just seeing that view makes me wanna live and I wanna see it more! I want to party, feel good, be happy with myself, just chasing that feeling makes me wanna live longer!