What was your reason?

[darweenian]

Why I didn't:

My mom would be ruined. It would utterly destroy her, and her life is already a card-castle. The ultimate end to what she would consider her own worthless story, and I absolutely worship her, so I could never let that happen. My "...definition of beauty begins with the word 'Mom,'" as Shane Koyczan put it.

If I mess it up or chicken out halfway through I might end up seriously messed up and incapable of ending things (I.e. major disability, brain damage, etc). That would be a fate worse than death, and one from which there would be no escape.

 

[afterlifepig]

why i want to kill myself i sort of already said in my thread in the Suicide Forum section. i am bored and it doesn't seem like i have much to look forward to. no love life 4 me, just grinding away and deteriorating from my best self at a job so i can live a life that is now about keeping my parents happy. writing software gave me a purpose but i'm just about done w/ that. being dead seems like it could b much more stimulating 4 me.

why i wouldn't, at least not anytime soon, is b/c of my parents who care 2 much about me, and me them.

 

[dagget]

The Whys?

Guilt, horrible shame, the prospect of managing to destroy career, reputation, friends, loss of job, house, partner of many years, all my savings and basically hope.

Why I didn't

Flaw in the method and the thought of leaving my pets with nobody, they didn't deserve that they are innocent.

 

[BornAgain]

Love. Couldn't feed or provide a roof to my children, only help provided was for women at shelters, decided to move out if the way, so their mother could get help.

Why I didn't die.... No idea, everybody tells me I didn't die as God has a mission for ne