Today I am depressed about my health. I’m actually pretty healthy except for the chronic pain and migraines. So that means I could live a very long life like this.
I got off prescription pain meds this year and was very proud of that. But now, while my pain is not as bad as it was years ago, it’s still there. My chief complaint is the migraines. I’ve tried just about everything for them and nothing works.
I used to be able to push through and get stuff done but since coming off pain meds I have become lazy. I say lazy only in the sense that I don’t get much done because I feel like I can’t. I just don’t have it in me anymore to push through the pain.
Even on the days that I have been able to push through, I don’t feel good about it. It all feels like a waste of time.
I’m in a new home that is much smaller. My old home of 20 years was like a well oiled machine. I had that place running efficiently. I just don’t care to do that with this new place. I used to entertain frequently and have not since moving. We live in the country and pretty far from family and friends. I’ve not made any new friends. So I feel lonely. The old cliche comes to mind, the bored lonely housewife.
I found out my husband cheated on me almost exactly at the same time as the move, 2 years ago. We’ve been married almost 32 years. I know this also is effecting my motivation.
I don’t know how to care again. How do you care and desire to live with constant pain and heartbreak?
I got off prescription pain meds this year and was very proud of that. But now, while my pain is not as bad as it was years ago, it’s still there. My chief complaint is the migraines. I’ve tried just about everything for them and nothing works.
I used to be able to push through and get stuff done but since coming off pain meds I have become lazy. I say lazy only in the sense that I don’t get much done because I feel like I can’t. I just don’t have it in me anymore to push through the pain.
Even on the days that I have been able to push through, I don’t feel good about it. It all feels like a waste of time.
I’m in a new home that is much smaller. My old home of 20 years was like a well oiled machine. I had that place running efficiently. I just don’t care to do that with this new place. I used to entertain frequently and have not since moving. We live in the country and pretty far from family and friends. I’ve not made any new friends. So I feel lonely. The old cliche comes to mind, the bored lonely housewife.
I found out my husband cheated on me almost exactly at the same time as the move, 2 years ago. We’ve been married almost 32 years. I know this also is effecting my motivation.
I don’t know how to care again. How do you care and desire to live with constant pain and heartbreak?
