Empathy Only Who am I, to you?

[johnDoen]

To be honest, I have nothing left to type. I just want to die.
Stresses pair well with my constant suicidal thoughts. Well, it could have been worse, which is right now: a plan, a method and a will.
I still have to talk to someone just like the last time, as history repeats itself. I see myself in a similar situation just like 2 and half years ago.
Is it because of the pandemic? Is it because of my job? Is it just me?

Who am I? What am I doing with this? Will I be free?

 

[Javier]

You are a great person that I highly appreciate and this world would lose a great asset if you were not here.

 

[KindaOtiose]

To me, even though I don't know you that well, seem like a good, decent person, who has to face unfair problems. It seems to me you would be greatly missed and this world would lose a great asset if you passed, as said above. Keep yourself safe.

 

[iloverachel]

To be honest, I have nothing left to type. I just want to die.
Stresses pair well with my constant suicidal thoughts. Well, it could have been worse, which is right now: a plan, a method and a will.
I still have to talk to someone just like the last time, as history repeats itself. I see myself in a similar situation just like 2 and half years ago.
Is it because of the pandemic? Is it because of my job? Is it just me?

Who am I? What am I doing with this? Will I be free?

John you are a good caring person. You have tried so hard to help out the people on this forum including myself despite going through so much pain.

I know how it feels to lose hope and feel stuck
I feel as suicidal and terrible as i felt over 5 years ago

It feels like an impossible battle getting out this dark hole

I somehow hope you find peace and joy because you deserve it

 

[johnDoen]

You are a great person that I highly appreciate and this world would lose a great asset if you were not here.

To me, even though I don't know you that well, seem like a good, decent person, who has to face unfair problems. It seems to me you would be greatly missed and this world would lose a great asset if you passed, as said above. Keep yourself safe.

Thank you, though I don't think my loss would be significant.
It's just too much everyday and no one care, as it has always been.

John you are a good caring person. You have tried so hard to help out the people on this forum including myself despite going through so much pain.

I know how it feels to lose hope and feel stuck
I feel as suicidal and terrible as i felt over 5 years ago

It feels like an impossible battle getting out this dark hole

I somehow hope you find peace and joy because you deserve it

I did expect something in return so I'm not quite a good person, but thank you.
And peace to you, as well.

 

[Pebble mouse]

so I'm not quite a good person, but thank you.

John, I disagree. I think that is your condition talking to you. You ARE a good person, even if you don't accept that at this point. We are all here for a reason, after all.

 

[KindaOtiose]

Thank you, though I don't think my loss would be significant.
It's just too much everyday and no one care, as it has always been.

Everything is significant and the loss of every human life is a tragedy. Try and hold onto that. Your brain telling you something different is your condition talking, as Pebble mouse said. Keep yourself safe.

 

[Road to Nowhere]

You are a good and caring person john, you offer support to others even when your struggling yourself. You are creative and intelligent as well, your condition is lying to you don't sell yourself short. Be kind to yourself stay safe.

 

[KM76710]

I agree with the others, I have always found posts by you being thoughtful and interesting and to consider for myself personally.

 

[johnDoen]

You are a good and caring person john, you offer support to others even when your struggling yourself. You are creative and intelligent as well, your condition is lying to you don't sell yourself short. Be kind to yourself stay safe.

I agree with the others, I have always found posts by you being thoughtful and interesting and to consider for myself personally.

Thank you. My life sucks to the point I see no future nor hope, nor grace as well since I declared a collapse of faith.
Now, it's just work, household chores, social relationship chores and the pandemic.

 

[WildCherry]

I'd say you're someone that matters here. In the 24 hours since I've come back to SF after a bit of a hiatus, I've seen lots of supportive posts and comments you've made. Your support has a positive effect on people, even if you're not able to see it.

 

[johnDoen]

I'd say you're someone that matters here. In the 24 hours since I've come back to SF after a bit of a hiatus, I've seen lots of supportive posts and comments you've made. Your support has a positive effect on people, even if you're not able to see it.

It's strange that I didn't see your reply in Alerts.
I hope what I have done is enough so that I can set myself free from this life, once and for all.

 

[Holding my breath]

It's strange that I didn't see your reply in Alerts.
I hope what I have done is enough so that I can set myself free from this life, once and for all.

What have you done? If you are not safe or taken something, you must let someone know or get to the emergency room.

 

[johnDoen]

What have you done? If you are not safe or taken something, you must let someone know or get to the emergency room.

"What I have done" means what I have done so far since the day I joined SF, or what I have contributed to life or society overall. I made many threads to let everyone know, well most of them are forgotten by now. It's something to do with the 2nd quote in my signature.

Do you think that everything would end up like my first therapy sessions? Somehow, I'm convinced that it would.
"The whole country is dealing with the pandemic, then we have this guy who wants to suicide."