why the hell everytime i plan on killing myself i always change my mind at the last second?? i went into town centre today where theres a huge building which u can get access to the roof, i walked there and actually climbed to the top and i sat there freezing my vegetables off, and i decided not to do it..WHY?!? this is not the 1st or even 2nd time ive stopped at the last second and changed my mind im so fucking useless i cant even jump off a building and kill myself. 1 day i will find a way of not being able to stop myself from doing it and end up dead. 1 day!