ever since i was a kid people have been making fun of me cus of the way i do thingsyeah i know I"M WEIRD. i dont need a reminder.i thought that had finally stopped.well it hasnt. still hearing people muttering so i cant hear "oh she'll never get it its so sad she just doesnt understand".i know there talking about me and yeah there right ill never understand why im not included why everyone thinks im the complete opposite of what i am and that every little word they say about me hurts like hell.yeah sometimes i look like im sneering when im smiling sometimes i look like im staring at someone when im ntot and sometimes i look like the retard i am.i think im looking ok then ill getr shown a picture of how i really look.im not normal at all and it hurts.today some one said "does the air have a nice scent up there" and i asked why.they said well youre so stuck up all the time like youre more important then everyone else.i told them i wasnt trying to be that way and they said well then why are you sticking youre nose up in the air and not talking to me when i say hi.well maybe cus i didnt hear you maybe cus i dont notice shit about the world im in and maybe ive been working on it all my life and it will never stop.i hate looking the way i do i hate being me. i hate having the things i do and say twisted and turned and made to seem l;ike they dont even come from me.maybe im n ot stuck up maybe im crying inside because because nothing i do is right and ill never be accepted.the peron saud they where just picking on me well maybe im fed up with being picked on. i hate me.