why is everything so fucking hard

[andyc68]

so confused today, had to drop the house price to sell it ( no brainer ) but ex rang to talk money which we were borrowing from a mutual friend.
it makes sense to carry on but i said i will think on it.
trouble is i believe the house wont sell and i dont want to owe him anymore than the 10k we already do but on the other had, what if it does sell soon.....
was having a good day but now..........
i want this to be over so i can break all ties but its so hard to do whats best, dont want to let my mate down.
yet the ya or nay is down to me, i cant handle the pressure, i dont want it but i have got it.
this life is so complicated, so unreal.

its like a waking nightmare that i am ashamed to wake up from.


well fuck this for a game of soldiers !!!!!!

 

[itmahanh]

Things are so fucking hard because apparently the reward in the end will be so worth the effort. Hang in there Andy!! Your reward will soon be realized.