Can someone please explain why me? Why do I have to be depressed and miserable and suicidal. All the 99.99% of other 16 year olds are having the time of their lives while I'm fucking miserable. I don't even have a legitimate reason to be like this. I had an okay childhood. Not too many friends but enough. I was/am overweight but I was never made fun of that bad. My parents were okay too. I never got hit undeservingly. I've always been polite and was always told I would have a bright future. Well look at me now. Posting in a suicide forum. I don't think this is what they meant by my bright future I am so scared of death but I feel thats my only realistic option. If it were my choice, I'd just stop everything going on in my life and just be calm. We all know that's impossible. I don't know what to do. Why me? I don't get it. I've been okay the past couple weeks. But now here I am, on easter, alone at home. My parents went over my aunts and I stayed home because I think I have a cold. I've had a lot of time to think today and I just can't take it. I wish everyone would leave me alone so I can just rot. I have zero energy and zero desire to do anything. Attempting suicide would be too much effort. I have no reason to be like this but I am. Can someone tell me why? This isn't even all of me. I am a horrible person. -edit- I don't think people understand that, at least for me, depression is a PHYSICAL pain. It hurts so much. I don't know how much longer I can take it.