Can someone please explain why me?
Why do I have to be depressed and miserable and suicidal.
All the 99.99% of other 16 year olds are having the time of their lives while I'm fucking miserable.
I don't even have a legitimate reason to be like this.
I had an okay childhood. Not too many friends but enough.
I was/am overweight but I was never made fun of that bad.
My parents were okay too. I never got hit undeservingly.
I've always been polite and was always told I would have a bright future.
Well look at me now.
Posting in a suicide forum.
I don't think this is what they meant by my bright future
I am so scared of death but I feel thats my only realistic option.
If it were my choice, I'd just stop everything going on in my life and just be calm.
We all know that's impossible.
I don't know what to do.
Why me?
I don't get it.
I've been okay the past couple weeks.
But now here I am, on easter, alone at home.
My parents went over my aunts and I stayed home because I think I have a cold.
I've had a lot of time to think today and I just can't take it.
I wish everyone would leave me alone so I can just rot.
I have zero energy and zero desire to do anything.
Attempting suicide would be too much effort.
I have no reason to be like this but I am.
Can someone tell me why?
This isn't even all of me.
I am a horrible person.
-edit-
I don't think people understand that, at least for me, depression is a PHYSICAL pain.
It hurts so much.
I don't know how much longer I can take it.
Why do I have to be depressed and miserable and suicidal.
All the 99.99% of other 16 year olds are having the time of their lives while I'm fucking miserable.
I don't even have a legitimate reason to be like this.
I had an okay childhood. Not too many friends but enough.
I was/am overweight but I was never made fun of that bad.
My parents were okay too. I never got hit undeservingly.
I've always been polite and was always told I would have a bright future.
Well look at me now.
Posting in a suicide forum.
I don't think this is what they meant by my bright future
I am so scared of death but I feel thats my only realistic option.
If it were my choice, I'd just stop everything going on in my life and just be calm.
We all know that's impossible.
I don't know what to do.
Why me?
I don't get it.
I've been okay the past couple weeks.
But now here I am, on easter, alone at home.
My parents went over my aunts and I stayed home because I think I have a cold.
I've had a lot of time to think today and I just can't take it.
I wish everyone would leave me alone so I can just rot.
I have zero energy and zero desire to do anything.
Attempting suicide would be too much effort.
I have no reason to be like this but I am.
Can someone tell me why?
This isn't even all of me.
I am a horrible person.
-edit-
I don't think people understand that, at least for me, depression is a PHYSICAL pain.
It hurts so much.
I don't know how much longer I can take it.