Dunno if anyone remembers me, I use to post here then I left cus I felt better but I'm back again. I had a very bad day today at work, when I got home I thought about suicide I had stuff I needed to make an attempt but I couldn't do it because I am too pussy. What if i don’t succeed? Life would be even worse. I am lonely, I live alone and have no friends except online friends, it was my < Mod Edit > birthday last week and I just wanted it to be over cus I had no one to celebrate with, I'm not close with my family, my mum died, I have no emotional support from anyone (apart from online friends but I still have to deal with stuff myself at the end of the day) It's just me and I feel i can't live just for myself. I see others all happy around me and I feel so angry, It's such a weight. I guess If I'm to pussy to suicide atm, i should take anti depressants, I’ve never took them before, do they help?