With you

[MissingMyHearts]

Every place we ever walked and
Everywhere we talked, I miss you
You never leave my mind
So much of you is left behind

You took my days with you
Took my nights with you

Those unfinished conversations
We used to have still speak to me
And I write you letters every day
That I’ll never send and you’ll never see
All this wishful thinking
Gets me nowhere I can’t stay
Though my heart is broken
It keeps breaking every day

You took my hopes with you
Took my dreams with you

I keep thinking that you’ll be calling
Everyone says that it’s all in my head
And I can’t accept it yet
I’m not ready to just give in
I know that I can’t live in this pain
With these feelings of regret
I can’t comprehend this
And pretend that I don’t care
Any place I wanna be
I wanna see you there

You took my life with you
Took my world with you​

 

[Luoma]

I can deeply, deeply relate to the words you wrote, MissingMyHearts. I actually cried while reading because it just hit so close to home, especially the last two lines. Thank you so much for sharing, you really do have a way with words. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have a heart of gold.

 

[MissingMyHearts]

I can deeply, deeply relate to the words you wrote, MissingMyHearts. I actually cried while reading because it just hit so close to home, especially the last two lines. Thank you so much for sharing, you really do have a way with words. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have a heart of gold.

I cannot take credit for it as it is from Ghost The Musical. The song is WITH YOU. If you look it up on youtube and can watch it without crying, then you are superwoman!!

I am just missing my wife and heard this and felt like posting it.

 

[Luoma]

I cannot take credit for it as it is from Ghost The Musical. The song is WITH YOU. If you look it up on youtube and can watch it without crying, then you are superwoman!!

I am just missing my wife and heard this and felt like posting it.

Even still, I absolutely have to thank you for posting it! I kinda needed to read this because I was avoiding my feelings for a while and it's important to sometimes just address it instead of running away from it. I'm so sorry to hear about your wife. I'm also super proud of you for continuing to fight. I believe in you!

 

[MissingMyHearts]

Even still, I absolutely have to thank you for posting it! I kinda needed to read this because I was avoiding my feelings for a while and it's important to sometimes just address it instead of running away from it. I'm so sorry to hear about your wife. I'm also super proud of you for continuing to fight. I believe in you!

Thanks for the kind words, but I am about done fighting. The papers are due in this week for the divorce and I have no idea how I am going to handle it knowing what a mess they are and family court will make it even worse. Not looking towards this week at all.

 

[Luoma]

Thanks for the kind words, but I am about done fighting. The papers are due in this week for the divorce and I have no idea how I am going to handle it knowing what a mess they are and family court will make it even worse. Not looking towards this week at all.

It will be one hell of a week, we both know that. But moving forwards, you owe it to yourself and your family to keep fighting. Just hold your head up and power through this last week; it's important that even if family court is hard on fathers, what you have to do is fight and do your absolute best to get what rights you can. If bringing up how it hurts you is an option, bring it up to make them sympathize more with you. I've read your story before and I can only imagine the pain you are going through - I just got out of a relationship myself but I'm only 18 and we only dated for 9 months so I can't fully comprehend what it must be like for you - so all I can offer is my absolute best wishes. This is an important week; keep your head up and just know that it's not your fault. You are an amazing person.

(PS - I find it silly how you have a Batman icon up while I'm sporting a Harley Quinn one. Kinda ironic! )

 

[MissingMyHearts]

It will be one hell of a week, we both know that. But moving forwards, you owe it to yourself and your family to keep fighting. Just hold your head up and power through this last week; it's important that even if family court is hard on fathers, what you have to do is fight and do your absolute best to get what rights you can. If bringing up how it hurts you is an option, bring it up to make them sympathize more with you. I've read your story before and I can only imagine the pain you are going through - I just got out of a relationship myself but I'm only 18 and we only dated for 9 months so I can't fully comprehend what it must be like for you - so all I can offer is my absolute best wishes. This is an important week; keep your head up and just know that it's not your fault. You are an amazing person.

(PS - I find it silly how you have a Batman icon up while I'm sporting a Harley Quinn one. Kinda ironic! )

Not sure how much longer I can continue to let myself fall deeper and deeper into despair when the family has turned their backs on me and I am essentially abandoned and alone. Had I been in my 20's it might be easier but losing my family for the 2nd time, (that I blame myself for) is becoming way to much to handle. Break ups are never fun but easier when there is no children involved. My wife and I started dating when you were in diapers.

It hurts. It hurts daily and to be diagnosed with NPH which is essentially going to shorten my life by two years adds to all the horror and pain I never thought I would be stuck dealing with. I survived being in the military and several fun times overseas shooting at people but I think I am having to pay for it now. The question is how do I want to end up going out and on what terms.

I hope others can get their lives together and make it work for them. I do believe the fight in me is over. I am not into playing part time Dad and the courts here in America could care less if I see the kids or not as long as I am paying child support they do not care. I am droning on and on.

Yes the Harley Quinn avatar I noticed right away.