Yeah, screw me

[absolution]

....

Sweetie. I just really want to help you. It hurts that I can't. Please throw them up or call for help. Please.

 

[xXWhateverItTakesXx]

I deserve this.

I really do!!

 

[absolution]

No you most certainly do not. I promise you that. Why do you feel like you deserve it? At least tell me that. Try to make me understand.

 

[xXWhateverItTakesXx]

Everything is my fault, I had to pay..

All the abuse and pain, my fault. I'm tired...

 

[absolution]

Abuse is never the fault of the person who had to endure it. I know it may seem like it is but it isn't. I was abused too. Is it my fault? no. So its not your fault either.

 

[xXWhateverItTakesXx]

My eyes are tired, my ears are ringing and I feel numb

At least one person talked to me in this thread :hug:

 

[absolution]

And I will always be here ok? If you wake up I'll be here. I really hope you wake up. You are such a wonderful and beautiful person. :heart: :hug:

 

[IV2010]

I've just logged in and seen this.
you don't deserve to die whateveritakes...
get some help ..those feelings do pass...and OD rarely works...
pleaase get help so you don't damage an organ or something