pointless

I have been a little depressed recently (mild clinical depression, unpleasant but mostly manageable) and in the evenings when I run out of distractions, my mind keeps drifting more and more to thoughts of suicide and self harm, they are intrusive thoughts, not something I have any intention of...

I have no value as a person, no value in the job market, no value to women. I failed at being a human, I am useless and a waste of resources. My mother should have aborted me. My life is and will be pointless. I am sorry for you to waste time reading this. I don't even deserve that.

:( lately i've been feeling ugly and useless my dad is chronically ill and i'm one of the main caretakers it's just all so overwhelming and stressful to have to hear their aches and pains and fight over their own sadness when i'm sad too i used to be an artist i used to love to write and to sing...