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#61
Hello and welcome back :)

I'm sorry you're going through this.
I'm just really really sad that they don't feel the same way or, well in this case I'm assuming they don't.
What makes you assume they don't feel the same way?
 
#62
Hello and welcome back :)

I'm sorry you're going through this.

What makes you assume they don't feel the same way?
Hi Mr May...

I'm sorry.

<mod edit method>I haven't been able to sleep and this whole ordeal is really fucking with my head. I despise myself for even having attraction or desire for this person. Why do I even try? I need to end my misery. I'm going to try to write a farewell note to my friends, family and colleagues.

You know, I really tried. I really really tried to stay to give it one more chance.
 
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#63
I need to read the forum rules more closely. I'm deeply sorry I posted about things I'm not supposed to post about.

Some things that I did that made me feel a bit better but still very actively suicidal.

-ate sushi and drank coke zero.
-walked around the weather was nice.
-saw people smiling, laughing.
-saw dogs and animals.
-still posting on this forum.

I feel so lonely and desperate. Like a lost cause.

I read the updates about the new change of the website to Until Sunrise... it is true. I tend to be more suicidal at night and it gets worse when I wake up in the middle of the night.
I don't know if it is going to get better but, I feel my end coming nearer.
 
#65
@GraveRobber

engaging in activities that make you feel better is often the best we can do to stay afloat.

As long as we continue in some form of elation despite the innermost turmoil.

Progress is better than being stagnated in anguish.

Sending positive vibes.
Thanks Oizys,

I've been wanting to write poetry for quite some time.
I'm so used to hating myself it becomes routine.
I like the line you posted: "as long as we continue in some form of elation despite hte innermost turmoil, progress is better than being stagnated in anguish".

Yeah being alive fucking sucks ass most of the time. I really don't know what the point of all this is. I hurt every night and yeah it is horrible.
 

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