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( from the movie A Miracle on 34th Street)
KRIS: Oh, it's not just Doris. There's Mr. Sawyer. He's contemptible, dishonest, selfish, deceitful, vicious... Yet he's out there and I'm in here. He's called normal and I'm not. Well, if that's normal, I don't want it. That's why I answered incorrectly.
If you aren't familiar with the movie, Kris Kringle's been admitted to Bellevue for intentionally failing a mental examination. In this excerpt, he's explaining to Fred Gaily why he did it. Mr. Sawyer (who looks like Hitler) provokes Kris to violence, tricks Kris to get him to Bellevue, then lies to Kris, saying it was all the idea of Kris' friend, Doris.
Sounds a lot like my former coworkers.
Yesterday, I had to explain to an occupational therapist why I quit a well-paying job in an area with few. Like Kris Kringle, I let someone else's evil behavior lead me to do something that wasn't in my best interests.
Talking about how I was treated unfairly; the regret that I couldn't tolerate the abusive, unfair, two-faced, back stabbing coworkers until I found another job; the fear that I'll never get another job now because I have this unreasonable anxiety I'll end up in the same position---working with abusive, unfair, two-faced, back stabbing coworkers, well......just talking about it upsets me all over again.
I know the only choice is acceptance of the fact that life's not fair, let it go and move on with my life.......Or die.
My depression likes to tell me there is no happy ending here. That I'll never have a well paying job again, that I'll never even work again, that I'll be sad and unemployed-all because of some contemptible, dishonest, selfish, deceitful, vicious people who I've been trying to forgive for three months now.
Any words of wisdom would be appreciated. Thank you for reading.
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( from the movie A Miracle on 34th Street)
KRIS: Oh, it's not just Doris. There's Mr. Sawyer. He's contemptible, dishonest, selfish, deceitful, vicious... Yet he's out there and I'm in here. He's called normal and I'm not. Well, if that's normal, I don't want it. That's why I answered incorrectly.
If you aren't familiar with the movie, Kris Kringle's been admitted to Bellevue for intentionally failing a mental examination. In this excerpt, he's explaining to Fred Gaily why he did it. Mr. Sawyer (who looks like Hitler) provokes Kris to violence, tricks Kris to get him to Bellevue, then lies to Kris, saying it was all the idea of Kris' friend, Doris.
Sounds a lot like my former coworkers.
Yesterday, I had to explain to an occupational therapist why I quit a well-paying job in an area with few. Like Kris Kringle, I let someone else's evil behavior lead me to do something that wasn't in my best interests.
Talking about how I was treated unfairly; the regret that I couldn't tolerate the abusive, unfair, two-faced, back stabbing coworkers until I found another job; the fear that I'll never get another job now because I have this unreasonable anxiety I'll end up in the same position---working with abusive, unfair, two-faced, back stabbing coworkers, well......just talking about it upsets me all over again.
I know the only choice is acceptance of the fact that life's not fair, let it go and move on with my life.......Or die.
My depression likes to tell me there is no happy ending here. That I'll never have a well paying job again, that I'll never even work again, that I'll be sad and unemployed-all because of some contemptible, dishonest, selfish, deceitful, vicious people who I've been trying to forgive for three months now.
Any words of wisdom would be appreciated. Thank you for reading.
Sent from my iPhone
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