My akathisia has suddenly started flaring to the worst it's ever been for almost 3 days now and I have no idea why. It's torture, my brain and body have so many horrible sensations going on right now, I just want to jump out of my skin.
I guess it doesn't help that I've not slept great for weeks but I have no choice. My mum and her new puppy wake me up every morning around 5am and sometimes throughout the night. I struggle to sleep before 12am at the earliest lately because akathisia makes it impossible, and when I do sleep I can feel the aka in my dreams. I'm exhausted and sick.
I just want my life to end so much. I feel so broken. I can't keep living like this but there's nothing I can do. I was starting to become ambitious again despite my depression, I was setting up goals etc, and now I can't do anything except waste away in bed watching stuff to distract me and wait for the day to end only to have a worse night. Akathisia is hell. I've been through so much trauma in my life, have almost 30 other debilitating health conditions and absolutely nothing compares to this torture.
I guess it doesn't help that I've not slept great for weeks but I have no choice. My mum and her new puppy wake me up every morning around 5am and sometimes throughout the night. I struggle to sleep before 12am at the earliest lately because akathisia makes it impossible, and when I do sleep I can feel the aka in my dreams. I'm exhausted and sick.
I just want my life to end so much. I feel so broken. I can't keep living like this but there's nothing I can do. I was starting to become ambitious again despite my depression, I was setting up goals etc, and now I can't do anything except waste away in bed watching stuff to distract me and wait for the day to end only to have a worse night. Akathisia is hell. I've been through so much trauma in my life, have almost 30 other debilitating health conditions and absolutely nothing compares to this torture.