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[Windhover]

Yes, I feel a bit less lonely when I'm here. Hugs back @iloverachel . I'm grateul for SF. I'm looking into ways to get back to NSW without his help. I need closure one way or another.

 

[Windhover]

from an article entitled, Smiling To Death

“The personality is an adaptation, what we call the personality is often a jumble of genuine traits and conditioned coping styles, including some that do not reflect our true self at all but rather the loss of it.”

- Dr. Gabor Mate

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Painful, true words.

sounds like a good read.

 

[Windhover]

@FlamingoWrangler It is a good short read. If you search it, it'll likely show up. If you're into a long read, his book The Myth of Normal has poignant relevance and has helped me a lot; in more ways than I can briefly describe.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

@FlamingoWrangler It is a good short read. If you search it, it'll likely show up. If you're into a long read, his book The Myth of Normal has poignant relevance and has helped me a lot; in more ways than I can briefly describe.

I am def better with a short read. But I have been looking for an audio book that might keep my interest. I’ll see how it goes with the article.

(((Hugs)))

 

[Windhover]

a bit of messy, unrealistic play with paint lately. Missing my husband/ex/? is very painful. My friend tells me I need to move on and get over it. That kind of narrow-minded and blithe commentary is entirely unhelpful. I wish I had a friend who understand about long term relationships.

 

[may71]

My friend tells me I need to move on and get over it

Easier said than done.

I wish your friend were more understanding.

 

[Astrid78]

a bit of messy, unrealistic play with paint lately. Missing my husband/ex/? is very painful. My friend tells me I need to move on and get over it. That kind of narrow-minded and blithe commentary is entirely unhelpful. I wish I had a friend who understand about long term relationships.
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The poignancy of pain comes to mind, I like it.
Not sure what long term means to you but I've been married almost ten yrs now, separated for 4 lol but I get it. I miss a lot of things about who I thought he was.
Inbox is always open.
Many hugs @seabird

 

[Windhover]

I've been married since 2014.

I might write more to you @Astrid78 , but I don't want to be negative especially since you're super busy with moving and all the realtor crap issues right now.

 

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[Windhover]

Thank you for looking at the pics, and for not writing advice. I am broken and there isn't anything to be done. I appreciate SF and the support I find here.

 

[Pebble mouse]

We care for you @seabird. You are valued here ❤️❤️

 

[Windhover]

You're very kind to say that. Thank you @Pebble mouse .

hugs

 

[Windhover]

I'm learning to separate the feelings into categories. Suicidal feelings and thoughts have a box of their own, and being depressed bc I'm a failure has a corner in there, with all sorts of stuff jumbled into it.

Missing what I thought was going home for the rest of my life, that is the monster at present.

 

[Windhover]

 

[SillyOldBear]

I'm learning to separate the feelings into categories. Suicidal feelings and thoughts have a box of their own, and being depressed bc I'm a failure has a corner in there, with all sorts of stuff jumbled into it.

Missing what I thought was going home for the rest of my life, that is the monster at present.

I can NEVER think of you as a failure. We all mess up stuff and we all succeed at stuff. There are no failures; just human beings.

 

[Windhover]

 

[Windhover]

bittersweet

 

[Windhover]