alone

[AvidFan]

Until recently, being alone has never been a problem for me. Creativity can be a focus, I get lots of things done, I can navigate the way I want, social interaction issues don't intrude into my mind, and I'm less likely to become anxious.
Perhaps I was fooled or purposely fooled myself thinking I was smart enough and nice enough to be an introvert, and pull off being a good partner.

You seem smart enough, nice enough, and likely a decent partner for someone, at least from where I interact with you!

 

[Windhover]

Thank you for that @AvidFan. Reading your words gave me a view of what it could feel like if I re-balance and get out of the depression if that makes sense. I hope to find my confidence again.

 

[Windhover]

I need to go home.

 

[may71]

Hugs Seabird

 

[Survivorist]

Courage. That's all I can say. I am used to it now. Means - you can live with it (as long as there is a light at the end of the tunnel).

 

[Bergerac]

I need to go home.

Had the same thought, yesterday. I am trying to hold on; I hope you do, too. Sending love and hugs

 

[Bergerac]

@AvidFan

 

[Windhover]

Had the same thought, yesterday. I am trying to hold on; I hope you do, too. Sending love and hugs

I'm sorry you also find yourself in this distress. Thank you; for telling me to hold on, and for the love and hugs. I hope you are holding on and I send the same to you as well.

 

[Windhover]

So I did something about it all and am very scared but had to break out of the container I was holding myslef within.

So tired of having this level of stress. Life is a terribly strange journey.

 

[AvidFan]

So I did something about it all and am very scared but had to break out of the container I was holding myslef within.

So tired of having this level of stress. Life is a terribly strange journey.

It sure is. I hope your action will lead to the stress abating at some point, it's awful living with constant (negative) stress, whatever the kind or cause.

 

[may71]

So I did something about it all and am very scared but had to break out of the container I was holding myslef within.

You're welcome to say what it was if you'd like to. I hope whatever it was worked out well.

Hugs Seabird

 

[Windhover]

You're welcome to say what it was if you'd like to. I hope whatever it was worked out well.

Hugs Seabird

I don't know, I need hlep figuring stuff out, but not out on the forum at this point it's too sensitive and triggering to air it.

 

[may71]

Ok. I hope you'll be able to work it out in whatever way is best for you.

More hugs

 

[Windhover]

deconstructed flower

What can happen when I can't work on other works, waiting for them to dry or whatever. Playtime with color and form, & my disfunctional brain.

 

[AvidFan]

Looks a pretty functional brain to me!

 

[Windhover]

symbolizes another bit of my brain falling into the ether:

 

[snails]

So beautiful and expressive. I hope it helped you some.

 

[Windhover]

I did some work today which felt less stupid than usual. : )

 

[may71]

Do you want to say what work you did?

 

[Windhover]

it was a bit of technique, new to me, for transparent watercolour painting @may71