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Anniversary date

Lorax

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In a rare (for the last few years) occurrence, I had a nightmare, to wake up feeling nauseous and in pain all day. It's not the flu, it's the date I lost a parent. I was reminded of that, by my other parent mentioning it. The whole family went somewhere we used to go when I was a kid. I'm about 12 hours away, so I couldn't go.

Then I had a fight with someone, and cut them out of my life. Not a huge loss, we've only talked a few times. Girlfriend of my friend type deal. But that really pissed me off, while already being a mess. Plus long day at work.

It's the same every year. The pain comes back, like it had just happened. I was with them, from removing support, up until death. I'm glad I got to see them off. They were there for me, whenever I asked. So it felt fitting. I can't unsee that process. But I don't regret staying.

If you're going through loss/ certain days. It's okay to be hurt, it's okay to talk it out, it will always hurt sometimes. But try to keep going. As I kept going for them, you can too. That's all I can say, it's not fair, it hurts, and it takes a part of you. But, you're not alone. I'm going to go cry now.
 

Lorax

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#2
Just wanted to add, both my parents doted on me, and never gave up on trying to make me happy. I miss the lost one, but the other one talked to me and cheered me up.
 

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