I studied, worked, slept and lived as close to sanity as I'm able to. I tried to find new hobbies and managed to keep some running for months before they faded away.
I helped as many others as I could, though my mind struggles a lot with all these so-called "help", like regretting handing money for someone in need to return home or expecting something from the people I helped on SF.
I do everything I can to stay until this day, meaningful and helpful to others.
Have I done something wrong? Because I rarely have any luck in all this getting some help, from a bad therapist to busy counselors. Forgotten threads are somewhat expected but it's still hurt. I'm still struggling with getting people attention in chat.
Have I done too little? Have I done nothing? Have I done less than nothing?
Now I have to accept that either I'm suck at getting help or I don't deserve help in general.
Then, at least, may I be free from this world?
I helped as many others as I could, though my mind struggles a lot with all these so-called "help", like regretting handing money for someone in need to return home or expecting something from the people I helped on SF.
I do everything I can to stay until this day, meaningful and helpful to others.
Have I done something wrong? Because I rarely have any luck in all this getting some help, from a bad therapist to busy counselors. Forgotten threads are somewhat expected but it's still hurt. I'm still struggling with getting people attention in chat.
Have I done too little? Have I done nothing? Have I done less than nothing?
Now I have to accept that either I'm suck at getting help or I don't deserve help in general.
Then, at least, may I be free from this world?