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Anyone else lost a boyfriend/girlfriend to suicide??
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Hi. I have not. But my little brother almost did. <mod edit - methods>. I found him on the floor struggling to breath and unresponsive after hearing a loud thumping sound and immediately following that a very unusual rapid snoring sound. He was unconscious but his body was trying to breathe. My training kicked in and I ordered my father to call 911 & I immediately dragged him to a more opened space and assessed his vitals. Rescue arrival 6 mins and he was baker acted. <mod edit - methods>. It was crazy because that day I had briefly fell asleep but woke up just minutes before hearing the odd noise from his room. Had his not snored loud <mod edit - methods> or the thumping sound, I would not have consider it odd but because of the totality of everything I knew I needed to check on him. Crazy how things happened. He could have die from the lack of air due to the airway Issue had we not checked. He only woke up after I slapped him a few time. CPR was not need since he was struggling to breath. I just lifted him up and opened his airway by adjusting his neck and head. He came throught rather quickly. This happened March 31, 2015. I am also writing becuase I too think of committing suicide. Only my way will have a far lesser chance of failure. <mod edit - methods>. I did not do it at that moment because I need to get my affair in order first. I have real thought of it but I want to get my money and note ready if I plan to go through with it. I also am not gogoing to do it at home. Maybe in the field somewhere where clean up iwill be easy and not traumatize anyone. I feel sad and depressed and I do not want to live anymore most of the days. I tried to preoccupy myself. I have a beautiful girlfriend that I love so much with my heart and I want to marry her one day and have a family. She do not know how I feel because I really good at hiding my feelings. I also do not want to tell her especially not after what happened with my brother. She also told me after his incident, verbatim, " don't you ever dare do that too me". She said it becuase she know I feel depressed. She just does not know that I feel the suicide part deeply. Life is beautiful and I do not want to go but I cannot live like this anymore. I think about telling her everyday but I do not becuase I do not want to add stress to her life and have her worry and then in turn add burdent on her. I also do not want her to stop me. I already have this all planned out roughly in my head. It is all I think about. I feel like a failure. I want to said goodbye but I know if I do she will stop me. So I will not. I cried writing the part about me and I cry when I look at her and what I will miss. We in a fight becuase of my attitude lately andi it is only becuase I am trying to pprotect her from knowing my true feeling. I love her with all my heart.
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My ex girlfriend commited suicide a few months ago.
IT felt unreal when i heard about it. I got home and wss crying histerically while pacing back and forth in my house. I am talking to a psychologist now and things are starting to get better. Yea i still have feelings of guilt because the night before she texted me asking if i was still up? I did not answer until the next day. I did call her twice and texted her as soon as i got up. But she was set on doing it and no one could stop her. The thing that hurts the most is that i knew she was bipolar but i never did and research on the dangers of this disease. She did tell me that she was depressed and that at times she didnt even want to get out of bed. I thought about it snd wondered if she would actually go through it a few weeks before it happend. But i never thought a sweet sensual person like her would ever go through it. We broke up because i wanted out. I was not happy because the bipolar disorder caused her to have a rollercoaster of emotions that could be set off by the smallest things. I cared about her but i was not strong enough to deal with all that. I do feel guilty that i broke up with her. Had i not who knows she might still be alive. May her sweet soul rest in peace.
IT felt unreal when i heard about it. I got home and wss crying histerically while pacing back and forth in my house. I am talking to a psychologist now and things are starting to get better. Yea i still have feelings of guilt because the night before she texted me asking if i was still up? I did not answer until the next day. I did call her twice and texted her as soon as i got up. But she was set on doing it and no one could stop her. The thing that hurts the most is that i knew she was bipolar but i never did and research on the dangers of this disease. She did tell me that she was depressed and that at times she didnt even want to get out of bed. I thought about it snd wondered if she would actually go through it a few weeks before it happend. But i never thought a sweet sensual person like her would ever go through it. We broke up because i wanted out. I was not happy because the bipolar disorder caused her to have a rollercoaster of emotions that could be set off by the smallest things. I cared about her but i was not strong enough to deal with all that. I do feel guilty that i broke up with her. Had i not who knows she might still be alive. May her sweet soul rest in peace.
My husband committed suicide 7 weeks ago! its like being in hell everyday, I have two teenage kids to look after, work to go to or I wont be able to pay the bills. Its unbearable, day after day of pain and loneliness. People have been kind but they soon disappear and then you're on your own dealing with it all, the daily grind, haven't to keep going. Everywhere I look I see him, is things and its like a knife in my heart...
No not a spouse but three acquaintances that did. All young men. Then moving back home I found out that a childhood friend had taken his own life. I don't know really what to think. All I remember about him as a child and then a teenager was the laughs he instigated along with mischief. I don't really want to say anymore
Hello, please please, don't hurt yourself, don't kill yourself!! My husband committed suicide 7 weeks ago, we were together 18 years and have two teenage kids. He had always struggled with depression but managed to have good times together, a lot of happiness and two beautiful kids. Im devastated by him leaving me, I can't bare the pain! Please don't do it to your girlfriend, you will hurt her so much and she will have to live with that for the rest of her life!! I know you're hurting and don't want to live, but there's people, treatments that can help you, you just need to find the right help. Have you spoken to your doctor?? Please get help for yourself you need to talk to someone before you turn your girlfriend into a widow like me!!! Message me anytime.x
90% of my girlfriend's family smoked cigs but she never complained. Everyone but her and her little sister. She was able to get her sister to live with their grandparents while she stayed. 3 years ago she passed from lung cancer. She never went to a doctor about it and hid as many of the symptoms as she could from everyone. I still don't know why she would do that.