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[Aurelia]

My favorite thing to say at work is, "you can fix almost anything with duct tape and bailing wire, but you can't fix stupid". My guys laugh think it's funny. When I say it I am completely serious. The shit they do. Anyway. They really need to start administering IQ tests before they hire managers and office staff.

I think they need to administer IQ tests to parents before they're allowed to have children in the first place. That, and parenting classes. Seriously.

Next time they laugh at you saying that, you should be like, "Yes, it's funny up until the moment you realize I'm talking about you."

 

[Nick]

"Yes, it's funny up until the moment you realize I'm talking about you."

I've said this before. lol. It's a wonder I don't spend more time in HR. The things I spend time in there for aren't even related to my antisocial behavior. It's my haircut, clothes and them demanding I use the unisex bathroom (as the use of any other would cause discomfort for others).

 

[Nick]

OK me, I'm # 4 no doubt. and if not, something else just as if not more troubled.

Same as me. Hopefully all your appointments help you get some answers and you can start moving forward.

 

[Aurelia]

Hmm. Number 3 is actually pretty similar to me too now that I think about it. So I'd probably say I'm a combination of 1 and 3. Although, I can also identify with the persistent feelings of boredom and the need for excitement in number 2.

 

[Aurelia]

I've said this before. lol. It's a wonder I don't spend more time in HR. The things I spend time in there for aren't even related to my antisocial behavior. It's my haircut, clothes and them demanding I use the unisex bathroom (as the use of any other would cause discomfort for others).

That's so fucking stupid. People should be able to use whatever fucking bathroom they're most comfortable using.

 

[dandelions]

Same as me. Hopefully all your appointments help you get some answers and you can start moving forward.

I'm in deep distress right at the moment. I'm off from work this week and just completed phase 1 of my help search only to find out why my phone was ringing so much was because apparently i comitted a heinous work crime last week and my supervisor is out for blood.

 

[Nick]

So for me I think this is a fairly accurate description, taking pieces from all of them:

Deep inside however, there are often angry and disappointed with the actions of those around them. Scratch the surface, and that anger could explode, but they are much more likely to do harm to themselves by self-mutilating or even suicide. Often act without thinking, getting themselves into all sorts of trouble. Unpredictable, irritable, defiant, disgruntled, stubborn, pessimistic and resentful". They are torn between relying upon people and at the same time keeping their distance for fear of disappointment. They vacillate between feelings of unworthiness and anger.
This type is marked by his constant sense of bitterness which they turn inward. They will often engage in self-destructive behaviors whether it is conscious or unconscious. Their levels of self-hatred can often reach monumental proportions leading them into all types of self-destructive behaviors, ranging from poor healthcare to reckless driving to performing humiliating sexual acts. These people are not your run-of-the-mill "toxic coworker". Though they might often seem okay on the surface, these are deeply troubled individuals in need of help. Even the most experienced of therapists can be challenged by them.

Yep, that mess is a decent picture. Fuck I'm a disaster.

 

[dandelions]

So for me I think this is a fairly accurate description, taking pieces from all of them:

Deep inside however, there are often angry and disappointed with the actions of those around them. Scratch the surface, and that anger could explode, but they are much more likely to do harm to themselves by self-mutilating or even suicide. Often act without thinking, getting themselves into all sorts of trouble. Unpredictable, irritable, defiant, disgruntled, stubborn, pessimistic and resentful". They are torn between relying upon people and at the same time keeping their distance for fear of disappointment. They vacillate between feelings of unworthiness and anger.
This type is marked by his constant sense of bitterness which they turn inward. They will often engage in self-destructive behaviors whether it is conscious or unconscious. Their levels of self-hatred can often reach monumental proportions leading them into all types of self-destructive behaviors, ranging from poor healthcare to reckless driving to performing humiliating sexual acts. These people are not your run-of-the-mill "toxic coworker". Though they might often seem okay on the surface, these are deeply troubled individuals in need of help. Even the most experienced of therapists can be challenged by them.

Yep, that mess is a decent picture. Fuck I'm a disaster.

In this case maybe the like button means I'm like that or you're like me etc

 

[Nick]

That's so fucking stupid. People should be able to use whatever fucking bathroom they're most comfortable using.

Some day I'll write out my latest series of HR visits. The whole thing has me knots to the point I can't talk about it without boiling. Their stupidity did drive me to finally commit to dressing and being who I am.

 

[Nick]

I'm in deep distress right at the moment. I'm off from work this week and just completed phase 1 of my help search only to find out why my phone was ringing so much was because apparently i comitted a heinous work crime last week and my supervisor is out for blood.

My phone rings ALL the time for similar reasons. Try not to worry about it.

 

[Aurelia]

So for me I think this is a fairly accurate description, taking pieces from all of them:

Deep inside however, there are often angry and disappointed with the actions of those around them. Scratch the surface, and that anger could explode, but they are much more likely to do harm to themselves by self-mutilating or even suicide. Often act without thinking, getting themselves into all sorts of trouble. Unpredictable, irritable, defiant, disgruntled, stubborn, pessimistic and resentful". They are torn between relying upon people and at the same time keeping their distance for fear of disappointment. They vacillate between feelings of unworthiness and anger.
This type is marked by his constant sense of bitterness which they turn inward. They will often engage in self-destructive behaviors whether it is conscious or unconscious. Their levels of self-hatred can often reach monumental proportions leading them into all types of self-destructive behaviors, ranging from poor healthcare to reckless driving to performing humiliating sexual acts. These people are not your run-of-the-mill "toxic coworker". Though they might often seem okay on the surface, these are deeply troubled individuals in need of help. Even the most experienced of therapists can be challenged by them.

Yep, that mess is a decent picture. Fuck I'm a disaster.

Yeah, I can relate to all of that too, except for the last part that was part of number 4. I wouldn't say I'm all that self-destructive. Maybe a little bit, unconsciously, but definitely not to monumental proportions. And I turn my hatred outward more so than inward.

 

[Nick]

Yeah, I can relate to all of that too, except for the last part that was part of number 4. I wouldn't say I'm all that self-destructive. Maybe a little bit, unconsciously, but definitely not to monumental proportions. And I turn my hatred outward more so than inward.

I am definitely self destructive. BLOW UP MY LIFE on a semi annual basis. It's a bit delayed this round, but I feel it coming. Then there are the little (okay big) day to day things.

 

[Aurelia]

Well, the one thing I do think we all have in common, regardless of our differences, is that we're all unique, intelligent, and awesome fucking people.

 

[Nick]

Well, the one thing I do think we all have in common, regardless of our differences, is that we're all unique, intelligent, and awesome fucking people.

Well … ya'll are intelligent and fucking awesome

 

[Aurelia]

Well … ya'll are intelligent and fucking awesome

Yes, you too, Kal. Don't start that shit with me. You know I'll pose a logical argument as to why this is the case. And win. :P

 

[Nick]

Yes, you too, Kal. Don't start that shit with me. You know I'll pose a logical argument as to why this is the case. And win. :p

Did I say I was excluding me?
Fuck you read me too well.
I'll keep my other thoughts to myself.

 

[dandelions]

Ok maybe off topic but can I just say oh fuck? You know how I love the word bleep but bleep just doesn't cut it. I was just intook and already primed fo yet another help rejection. I'm being inappropriate with people here now because I no longer know how to think. I fear a self rampage and told them so and inadequate help is better than no help but I was reminded that they have to protect themselves first and foremost. Something about liability shit.

 

[Aurelia]

I'll keep my other thoughts to myself.

You never have to. You know I'm just a PM away.

 

[Nick]

Ok maybe off topic but can I just say oh fuck? You know how I love the word bleep but bleep just doesn't cut it. I was just intook and already primed fo yet another help rejection. I'm being inappropriate with people here now because I no longer know how to think. I fear a self rampage and told them so and inadequate help is better than no help but I was reminded that they have to protect themselves first and foremost. Something about liability shit.

While I have certainly been known to act out in public, it might be best to try and calm a little. Is there anything that helps you calm down?

 

[Aurelia]

but I was reminded that they have to protect themselves first and foremost. Something about liability shit.

Of course they do. Why worry about being efficient when doing so could potentially put their asses at risk? They should change the whole "first, do no harm" thing to "first, save your own ass."