Like specifically I was Zooming for class and I turned on the light to the side of my laptop because it was dark and a girl goes "ewww" in a really mean, judgmental way. It was right at the end of class so nothing came of it and I can't prove harassment over one little incident like this - plus that would make me look like a petty loser who makes trouble because he is a magnet for bullies.
But ... I had bad thoughts. Not like I was going to do anything, but the whole pattern bothers me - someone tries to pick on me, I get upset and do or think negative things. That's all over with and now I just have to do some kind of damage control so I'm not singled out in this class. Not hard, it will probably work out, but I'm trying to learn from this situation. Basically all I did was turn my camera on like everyone was told they ought to do, but I'm the ugly one so this one toxic person decided for whatever reason to mess with me.
On the plus side, it brought me here (not because I'm suicidal) so I can share some of what I've been through as someone who has been prone to suicidal ideation in the past but survived it.
Have you guys had situations like this? Does it keep happening? What is your take on people teasing or harassing because you have an odd/overweight/different appearance?
But ... I had bad thoughts. Not like I was going to do anything, but the whole pattern bothers me - someone tries to pick on me, I get upset and do or think negative things. That's all over with and now I just have to do some kind of damage control so I'm not singled out in this class. Not hard, it will probably work out, but I'm trying to learn from this situation. Basically all I did was turn my camera on like everyone was told they ought to do, but I'm the ugly one so this one toxic person decided for whatever reason to mess with me.
On the plus side, it brought me here (not because I'm suicidal) so I can share some of what I've been through as someone who has been prone to suicidal ideation in the past but survived it.
Have you guys had situations like this? Does it keep happening? What is your take on people teasing or harassing because you have an odd/overweight/different appearance?