Re: Cafe Wednesday Oct 16th
Not really morning here, so I'll say Good Afternoon instead.
This morning I met with my oldest child's first grade teacher for her parent teacher conference. Her teacher gave me a glowing report. She is already testing out on her reading ability to the highest level they test to for first grade. The teacher said she may be reading well above that level but that there was no way for her to measure it. She believes that oldest is likely a candidate for the gifted program when they test for that at the end of second grade. She is excelling in every subject and has exemplary behavior too. The only thing she needs to work on is her handwriting. Her teacher said she thinks she gets to thinking faster than she can neatly write and that less than stellar handwriting is not uncommon in children who are gifted. It did my momma heart good to hear how well she is doing in school. Tomorrow I meet with my other school age child's teacher. It will be interesting to see how she is doing.
As for me, the intense dark cloud that has been suffocating me the last several days seems less heavy today. It is still there keeping me from wanting to eat, sapping what energy I have, and making my thoughts still turn to things that I know aren't good for me in any respect. I had a nap in the early afternoon while the baby napped too, but I still feel like I could sleep for a year or two. Mood-wise, on a scale of 0 to 10,my depression today is at a 7. One of the goals my therapist and I set a while back was to try to get that number below a 5 on a consistent basis. It hasn't been lower than a 6 at all in about three months. Ultimately, the goal is to get that number down to mostly 0 & 1 (0 is no depression, 1-3 mild, 4-6 moderate, and 7-10 severe). For now though, it would be great to see the number in the moderate range.
Tonight is choir practice. I'm not looking forward to it.
Have a good rest of your day.
~Ana