Can't Cope From Current Situation With EX Partner

[Kai Nashi]

Hey, if you been in the chat the past few days you probably know what this is about. If not, let me explain. About 5 months ago, while in a Poly relationship, I meet a transwomen like myself that I really hit it off with. She was homeless too. I decide to get a hotel for 3 days to get her off the streets for a few days which she said shes been on for about 5 to 6 months. It was a wild 3 days, but 3 days I wont forget. We had such a good time, while ofcourse with some bad moments, that I never EVER had a experience with a relationship like this. I never felt or acted this way with anyone else. I never believed in Soul Mates until I met her. But things got kinda rocky after the 3 days. I was originally supposed to go home and take her back to the car she slept in but I didnt, I didnt want to leave her, I guess. We ended up having to sleep on the streets in the mall parking lot, and argued a few times. The next day we went to starbucks to wait for it to open but she became unconsious and i had to call an ambulance. She was a heavy drinker forgot to mention. But after a day she comes back and we spend the last day we see eachother in person together. Then a month later, after me becoming depressed because of her wanting to die and not being able to see her I break it off with her, which I regret even tho it was prob for the best of us. 4 Months later to now, I decide to have a friend contact her because im nervous to do it myself. Then we start talking again. She is living with a new partner and stuff with his parents I guess. But we were talking and she said she might want to get back with me again, but after that, its been 5 days so far she hasnt been online, which is unlike her kinda. So heres where I am right now.. Im struggling coping that she may be gone for good because another thing is she had lung cancer, and I recently learned survival rates and stuff, so I dont really know whats going on. Or maybe she is just ghosting me. I dont know what to do. I cant seem to cope with all of this. I just want her back but its not looking good on that. this also has been ruining the relationship with me and mom cus my mom hates her. Idk what to do anymore. I just wish I could perish. Ive prettty much lost hope

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

I am going to be real here. 3 days of euphoria is not real life.
To be honest, she might not even remember it. Losing consciousness isn’t normal. unfortunately you can not fix her. She has to save herself.
I am sorry you are hurting.