I am lost beyond words, I've been in hospital since the new year and have been under-section(3) of the mental health act. After nearly 3months in hospital, I still have good plans to kill myself and today I told the doctors that I'm fine and I no longer feel suicidal, which they believed. Now I'm a free woman to through with my plans.
I've made plans xxxxxxxx and before I do that, I'm giving away and donating everything that I have which may be of value, to people and places that are significant to me. I've already given some stuff away.
But this is where I'm lost and it gets really confusing for me, my DEAR friend is trying everything in her power to try and get me into a private in-patient hospital; where people like "me" get a great treatment with 80% recovery. The problem is I'm not as enthusiastic about it as my friend is and I don't think the NHS will cover the cost as this is very expensive treatment.
I'm so determent killing myself but I worry I'm letting my friend down by going through with my plans.
I don't even know why I'm writing this. LOST AND HOPELESS
I've made plans xxxxxxxx and before I do that, I'm giving away and donating everything that I have which may be of value, to people and places that are significant to me. I've already given some stuff away.
But this is where I'm lost and it gets really confusing for me, my DEAR friend is trying everything in her power to try and get me into a private in-patient hospital; where people like "me" get a great treatment with 80% recovery. The problem is I'm not as enthusiastic about it as my friend is and I don't think the NHS will cover the cost as this is very expensive treatment.
I'm so determent killing myself but I worry I'm letting my friend down by going through with my plans.
I don't even know why I'm writing this. LOST AND HOPELESS
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