Yup. That. Yay, I'm yet another one of thousands of peopls who have "daddy issues". Just like Star Lord's entire new movie!!!
I'm being slightly sarcastic, but I know that it can be a very serious problem and I don't take this topic lightly.
My dad and I dont get along much. He's a pretty standard dad. Works all the time, only comes home to eat and sleep. Weekends he's outdoors doing stuff. He's also typical in that 'I'm always right and if you talk back I'll punish you' way. Like if I even call him out for taking his anger out on my mom or siblings, he's right and I'm the one who's a dick. And my grandparents and mom and shit even take his side. Fucking ridiculous. He has a serious anger issue and I'm literally always worried he's going to scream at me and hit me when he's around. He hasn't resorted to physical violence yet (because apparently thats the only kind of thing my mom actually has a problem with), but I know he's a time bomb.
So today, we got into another arguement about dinner or something and he literally screamed at me "do you wanna go?!" Aka "fight me." Hes over 6ft and idk weight things, but I've been called a stick my entire life so if he hits me once there's a good chance I'd die. If I didnt, the medical expenses would keep me under his thumb the rest of my life. Yaaaaay.....
I got his short temper (which I've been managing my entire life because I dont want to be him) and screamed back "wait 10 minutes and I'll be done cooking and out of your hair" or something and he stormed out.
This happens more than is normal. Every few months probably. I have no patience for him swinging his dick around and screaming at us. So to speak. And I'm stupid enough (though I call it courage XD) to keep calling him on his shit. Which means I often leave the house terrified that when I come back he'll have destroyed my stuff or something else dumb.
I'm trying to move out of state so I can seperate from them as much as possible but the job market isnt letting that happen fast enough. I'm scared to go home tonight and be there at all tomorrow. I dont have a lock on my door (parents forbid them) but I dont want to be anywhere near him. They leave for a week on Sunday so I just have to make a plan for the one day and like 3 nights. But my closest friend is 3 hours away, I left in a hurry so didnt exactly pack, and dont want to bother anyone or explain this to them. They wont look at me or my family the same again. Idk what to do but I dont want to go home and have him be passive aggressive all of tomorrow. After 23 years of that shit, I'm not tolerant of it much anymore. :P
What do I do? Idk where to go. And no one else will help me fix things at home. Maybe I'll just sleep in the car.
I'm being slightly sarcastic, but I know that it can be a very serious problem and I don't take this topic lightly.
My dad and I dont get along much. He's a pretty standard dad. Works all the time, only comes home to eat and sleep. Weekends he's outdoors doing stuff. He's also typical in that 'I'm always right and if you talk back I'll punish you' way. Like if I even call him out for taking his anger out on my mom or siblings, he's right and I'm the one who's a dick. And my grandparents and mom and shit even take his side. Fucking ridiculous. He has a serious anger issue and I'm literally always worried he's going to scream at me and hit me when he's around. He hasn't resorted to physical violence yet (because apparently thats the only kind of thing my mom actually has a problem with), but I know he's a time bomb.
So today, we got into another arguement about dinner or something and he literally screamed at me "do you wanna go?!" Aka "fight me." Hes over 6ft and idk weight things, but I've been called a stick my entire life so if he hits me once there's a good chance I'd die. If I didnt, the medical expenses would keep me under his thumb the rest of my life. Yaaaaay.....
I got his short temper (which I've been managing my entire life because I dont want to be him) and screamed back "wait 10 minutes and I'll be done cooking and out of your hair" or something and he stormed out.
This happens more than is normal. Every few months probably. I have no patience for him swinging his dick around and screaming at us. So to speak. And I'm stupid enough (though I call it courage XD) to keep calling him on his shit. Which means I often leave the house terrified that when I come back he'll have destroyed my stuff or something else dumb.
I'm trying to move out of state so I can seperate from them as much as possible but the job market isnt letting that happen fast enough. I'm scared to go home tonight and be there at all tomorrow. I dont have a lock on my door (parents forbid them) but I dont want to be anywhere near him. They leave for a week on Sunday so I just have to make a plan for the one day and like 3 nights. But my closest friend is 3 hours away, I left in a hurry so didnt exactly pack, and dont want to bother anyone or explain this to them. They wont look at me or my family the same again. Idk what to do but I dont want to go home and have him be passive aggressive all of tomorrow. After 23 years of that shit, I'm not tolerant of it much anymore. :P
What do I do? Idk where to go. And no one else will help me fix things at home. Maybe I'll just sleep in the car.