Hi there,
Im sorry to hear that your having a hard time, but Im glad that you were able to open up in therapy, its a step okay, to getting yourself better, more in control.
I dont know if you feel it yet, but opening up getting the things that have hurt you off your chest, actually saying these things out loud is a good thing for you and your emotions. I know it can be scary actually telling someone, its something that youve kept bottled up and pushed down for so long.
Once I did that, it was like letting it be real, the things I was telling, it was no longer a secret I had to hide or be ashamed of. Noone judge me any differant, noone loved me any less.
I hope your next appointment will bring you some of the relief I started to feel once I got it all out and off my back.
Hugs, hope today is better for you.