Just an intro.
I actually come from Asia, but I have no where else to turn to... I figured that I was a human, so humans can give humans advice.
I'm a pretty anti-social person, who didn't excel in anything else but my studies, but recently my A level result release took a deathblow to whatever was left in my ego.
I know, I'm someone who really takes intelligence/achievements as something very, very important. I don't have any real/best/close friends, I don't do well in anything else in school, and what I solely had was just my academic achievement. I wanted to be a doctor, and I sincerely believed in my ability to do so.
However, it all crashed down in one day. It might sound a bit immature here, and I've even tried consoling myself that I would climb up one day, but it seems that I can't seem to convince myself. I'm sinking and spiralling down into an inferiority complex. I've blocked everyone from my MSN contacts, dared not appear on Facebook chat, dared not update it and so...
My "closest" friend received straight As, and I got straight Bs. I was so happy for him, I congratulated him, I cheered for him, but I got nothing but silence in reply. I tried once, twice, and eventually I came to the conclusion that he wasn't a real friend afterall. The days where we shared interests, even had telepathy... were all fake?
I guess everything just conglomerated together, and I can't seem to plumber the broken pipes. I'm in a deep quandary now, and all these negative emotions are dragging me down into the pits of hell. I can't climb out
Someone, or God, please help me!!!
Smack me awake from this delusional pain, stop myself from tearing myself up!!! I just don't know what I would do........
I actually come from Asia, but I have no where else to turn to... I figured that I was a human, so humans can give humans advice.
I'm a pretty anti-social person, who didn't excel in anything else but my studies, but recently my A level result release took a deathblow to whatever was left in my ego.
I know, I'm someone who really takes intelligence/achievements as something very, very important. I don't have any real/best/close friends, I don't do well in anything else in school, and what I solely had was just my academic achievement. I wanted to be a doctor, and I sincerely believed in my ability to do so.
However, it all crashed down in one day. It might sound a bit immature here, and I've even tried consoling myself that I would climb up one day, but it seems that I can't seem to convince myself. I'm sinking and spiralling down into an inferiority complex. I've blocked everyone from my MSN contacts, dared not appear on Facebook chat, dared not update it and so...
My "closest" friend received straight As, and I got straight Bs. I was so happy for him, I congratulated him, I cheered for him, but I got nothing but silence in reply. I tried once, twice, and eventually I came to the conclusion that he wasn't a real friend afterall. The days where we shared interests, even had telepathy... were all fake?
I guess everything just conglomerated together, and I can't seem to plumber the broken pipes. I'm in a deep quandary now, and all these negative emotions are dragging me down into the pits of hell. I can't climb out
Someone, or God, please help me!!!
Smack me awake from this delusional pain, stop myself from tearing myself up!!! I just don't know what I would do........