I dont know how to cope.
im drinking, cutting, taking pills and this wont go away.
i want to die.
and this is only about what regards me...
about my pregnant friend: i dont want to talk to her anymore. i dont want to be her friend anymore. it would be all so fake.
i feel that i either find a boyfriend who could save me or my last and only way out is suicide.
im scared and mad and hurt and crying.
i want out, i want out.