I cleaned all the trash in my kitchen! This is very big. I have not been able to fill a trash bag in about 6 months, and my apartment is filled with trash everywhere.
I reached out to someone from my support group and we talked for a couple hours and he volunteered then insisted to stay on phone with me while I cleaned up some. I told him I'd like to connect somewhat regularly and tentatively we will do that. It helped to talk -- he's also divorced and middle aged though he has some supports and family, and he's also on disability though he works part time and volunteers, so is sort of a few steps ahead of me.
Next I need to take a bunch of trash bags to dumpster, clean surfaces, and run dishwasher, but all these things are much more doable than the trash bagging. I also have living room and bedroom filled with trash, but at least now I have made some progress and can soon cook something again!