Hello @ThePrinceJay - Let me first start off by saying, that I am glad that things did not go according to plan for you. And I know of this disappointment you speak (of); & also what it feels like, to come home from an attempt & then only wish to repeat & fix the mistake - so to speak. But all I would ask you, is this: were you completely honest with them while being monitored inpatient as to your current state (of mind), and furthermore, your intentions (such as that with which you've been planning now). I know that different places have different standards that need to be met, in order to keep you under their watch/or- 'care.'
If you were not telling the truth, I think it would be in your best interest to go about trying to seek some more immediate medical help, with this time trying to be a little more truthful, so that they can help you out to the best of their capabilities.
Now on the Girl. I'm not familiar with the entire backstory, or "history" but since it is clearly sounding as though you consider her someone worth dying for, or over, or at the very least... That being one of the primary reasons, all I will tell you is this. It is very difficult to know how these things will play out with your current life experience (mid 20's?). You haven't lived long enough to be able to fully understand and grasp what life will be like as things transpire, and play out, with or without her.
It's kind of like the weather. If you're stuck in winter, and you hate winter, and all you've ever seen or known is winter . . . then it can be very difficult to envision a summer. But as someone who is quite a bit older than you, I can tell you that -- that / or, "it" is true. (Sorry for the poor analogy, my mind is mush, too~ / speaking more rhetorically, or not directing that at anyone in particular, most notably; You!)
In short, I'm not sure you're thinking in your clearest and most stable frame of mind. Naturally, if you're thinking of ending your life. And so, maybe the reason (or one of them?) that things didn't go as planned previously, is that it just wasn't meant to be. And it is not your time. I don't know. Sometimes it makes very little difference. I'm just here to tell you without being an expert on your life, that calling it quits over a girl, seems a lousy reason, or explanation as to why you've got to (or should) go. Especially - or even more so - given your age, and place in life.
Good luck to you, and don't do anything too suddently and without thinking, or more based and guided upon/or by, "feeling/emotion/etc."
If you were not telling the truth, I think it would be in your best interest to go about trying to seek some more immediate medical help, with this time trying to be a little more truthful, so that they can help you out to the best of their capabilities.
Now on the Girl. I'm not familiar with the entire backstory, or "history" but since it is clearly sounding as though you consider her someone worth dying for, or over, or at the very least... That being one of the primary reasons, all I will tell you is this. It is very difficult to know how these things will play out with your current life experience (mid 20's?). You haven't lived long enough to be able to fully understand and grasp what life will be like as things transpire, and play out, with or without her.
It's kind of like the weather. If you're stuck in winter, and you hate winter, and all you've ever seen or known is winter . . . then it can be very difficult to envision a summer. But as someone who is quite a bit older than you, I can tell you that -- that / or, "it" is true. (Sorry for the poor analogy, my mind is mush, too~ / speaking more rhetorically, or not directing that at anyone in particular, most notably; You!)
In short, I'm not sure you're thinking in your clearest and most stable frame of mind. Naturally, if you're thinking of ending your life. And so, maybe the reason (or one of them?) that things didn't go as planned previously, is that it just wasn't meant to be. And it is not your time. I don't know. Sometimes it makes very little difference. I'm just here to tell you without being an expert on your life, that calling it quits over a girl, seems a lousy reason, or explanation as to why you've got to (or should) go. Especially - or even more so - given your age, and place in life.
Good luck to you, and don't do anything too suddently and without thinking, or more based and guided upon/or by, "feeling/emotion/etc."
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