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"...i push my feet
To the edge
I look and I face my world
This lonely scene, I take it in
It's hard to say where all of it begins
And I end
And I waited for the sky to change
But, oh, it never did
And I almost dropped my head
And lost my faith
Then I saw you from a distance
You were worlds away
Oh, but you had me from the vision
I never looked away
Again.
I still fall for you
Like suns do for skies
Cerulean
Pouring in from your eyes
Just a hollow moon that you colorized
So powerful
I feel so small
But so alive
Like watching the Earthrise..."
To the edge
I look and I face my world
This lonely scene, I take it in
It's hard to say where all of it begins
And I end
And I waited for the sky to change
But, oh, it never did
And I almost dropped my head
And lost my faith
Then I saw you from a distance
You were worlds away
Oh, but you had me from the vision
I never looked away
Again.
I still fall for you
Like suns do for skies
Cerulean
Pouring in from your eyes
Just a hollow moon that you colorized
So powerful
I feel so small
But so alive
Like watching the Earthrise..."
"...The sun will shine like never before
One day I will be ready to go
See the world behind my wall
Trains in the sky
Are traveling through fragments of time
They're taking me to parts of my mind
That no one can find
I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal, I'm ready to feel
They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?..."
One day I will be ready to go
See the world behind my wall
Trains in the sky
Are traveling through fragments of time
They're taking me to parts of my mind
That no one can find
I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal, I'm ready to feel
They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?..."
"...I don’t like my mind right now Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary Wish that I could slow things down I wanna let go but there’s comfort in the panic And I drive myself crazy Thinking everything's about me Yeah, I drive myself crazy 'Cause I can’t escape the gravity
I'm holding on Why is everything so heavy? Holding on So much more than I can carry I keep dragging around what's bringing me down If I just let go, I'd be set free Holding on Why is everything so heavy?
You say that I'm paranoid But I’m pretty sure the world is out to get me It’s not like I make the choice To let my mind stay so fucking messy I know I'm not the center of the universe But you keep spinning 'round me just the same I know I'm not the center of the universe But you keep spinning 'round me just the same..."
I'm holding on Why is everything so heavy? Holding on So much more than I can carry I keep dragging around what's bringing me down If I just let go, I'd be set free Holding on Why is everything so heavy?
You say that I'm paranoid But I’m pretty sure the world is out to get me It’s not like I make the choice To let my mind stay so fucking messy I know I'm not the center of the universe But you keep spinning 'round me just the same I know I'm not the center of the universe But you keep spinning 'round me just the same..."
Below is a song and lyrics that express some of my worst moments in my struggle with depression. Coming to terms with truly starting to heal these lyrics hit differently.
i see for years now i allowed these horribly negative thoughts manipulate how i cared for myself. They brought me down and i let them. but i am starting to learn and starting to really heal.
i never thought i would make it to my 30s. i never thought i could wake up one day and feel like, life was worth living. i never thought i could just feel okay and at peace with myself.
[TRIGGER WARNING]
"... I'm a cynic.
I'm hopeless.
I'm broken.
There is no light inside of me.
I'm tired.
i’m restless.
i'm lonesome.
But I can never sleep.
My mind plays games when I'm alone now.
You said the worst things to get inside my head.
intoxication takes control now.
self medication takes its grip.
I'm crawling on the floor.
Take deep breaths, your heart is racing.
There’s clawing at the door.
Oh God, dont let 'em take me
...Now I have to find a way out.
I have to find my voice.
I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me.
Now I have to find a way back.
I have to make a choice.
I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me..."
i see for years now i allowed these horribly negative thoughts manipulate how i cared for myself. They brought me down and i let them. but i am starting to learn and starting to really heal.
i never thought i would make it to my 30s. i never thought i could wake up one day and feel like, life was worth living. i never thought i could just feel okay and at peace with myself.
[TRIGGER WARNING]
"... I'm a cynic.
I'm hopeless.
I'm broken.
There is no light inside of me.
I'm tired.
i’m restless.
i'm lonesome.
But I can never sleep.
My mind plays games when I'm alone now.
You said the worst things to get inside my head.
intoxication takes control now.
self medication takes its grip.
I'm crawling on the floor.
Take deep breaths, your heart is racing.
There’s clawing at the door.
Oh God, dont let 'em take me
...Now I have to find a way out.
I have to find my voice.
I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me.
Now I have to find a way back.
I have to make a choice.
I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me..."