I wish i could have been built with the framework to appreciate you. The real you, the guy that came out when you felt good with the world. You were truly special, in a way i don't think i'll ever find again. But i think in the end i needed the version of you who seemed as broken and jaded as me, and you started to improve so suddenly and dramatically, you were miles ahead of me within a few months. So i knew i'd just drag you back down to my level eventually. I'd be your anchor.
I think it's inevitable that's what i turn into for everyone at some point. I put it off as best i can, but eventually the day comes when i do nothing but hurt them, the question is just how much. And nobody deserves a partner who wishes they were more dysfunctional and bitter. You especially deserve someone capable of something better than just hurting you.