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Now that I'm in college I no longer really have any real friends. The "friends" I do have are nice enough to me (at least to my face) but it's not like I ever get invites to do things with them. They'll throw parties, have dinner at each others homes, go shopping together, and have movie nights but I'm never invited. That makes me feel like total and utter shite and no matter what I do or say, no matter how I dress or act I'm always a social leper.
I don't even have a facebook account because I know it would be friend-free. I was on myspace but the most friends I ever had was a grand total of about 7 or 8. What makes me feel better is knowing that almost everyone I knew in high school are even bigger losers now than I am. I got back in touch with a few and only 2 out of 15 finished college, the ones that went and dropped out owe small fortunes in student loans and don't even have degrees to show for it. One of these friends filed for bankruptcy. One girl I went to school with has never been married but has three different children by three different fathers and though she never said it, I bet she doesn't even know who the fathers are. 3 got severely addicted to drugs, one of these friends ended up getting pregnant but still used drugs during her pregnancy. One friend who was really "popular" on myspace, had like 74-75 friends, is working as a prostitute in Las Vegas. Geee... I wonder why she's so popular....
Maybe feeling bad about networking is just a matter of comparison. I feel like a shallow, judgmental person for saying all of this, but why the hell not? Being a nice and good person has never won me popularity and in fact hasn't won me anything.
Yes, these people you are looking up on facebook are more popular, but ask yourself 'are they people you'd really like to call your friends or even like to be in the same room with?' In the case of my current so-called friends, how nice and friend-worthy are they really if they don't even have the decency or balls to tell me to my face that they don't like me? I am happy being friendless. Friendless is who I am. :smile: