Feel guilt for wanting to tell feelings after change

[I_waste_everything]

A couple of weeks ago I posted a thread about some unpleasant experience making me realize on some level I want to live.

Since then, I've once again felt- now often and ongoingly, and with great detail- that I want to self-terminate. I have wanted to come and pour this out on these forums. Or at least answer one of those long, long threads where we can post it along with other peoples' posts.

But I've withheld because I feel if I do that, then I'm a fraud or a hypocrite. After having gotten a moment of wanting to live, and talking about it on the 'net, do I get to talk about once again wanting to self-end? I want to say yes, but I feel snagged on the fear I am hypocritical if I do.

 

[may71]

do I get to talk about once again wanting to self-end?

Yes, you can definitely talk about it.

I want to say yes, but I feel snagged on the fear I am hypocritical if I do

Not at all. People can change moods pretty quickly, even in the same minute.

 

[capitalism]

Because short realizations are short realizations. Achieving long standing change of mind is a long process. It's only in the games and movies that people need a brief experience to change their thoughts and feelings about something once and for all. I mean it can happen in life too but it's an exception not a rule. You have nothing to be ashamed of

 

[I_waste_everything]

Yes, you can definitely talk about it.

Not at all. People can change moods pretty quickly, even in the same minute.

Thank you for this. Thank you for understanding.

 

[may71]

You're welcome!