i got no one and was a victim of a narcissist woman before but got away from that but guess it stays with you as started ralasonship over 4 years ago and triggered at silly things and lied and talked to others to escape and we had twins and now there 2 but she just wont let me try to prove im trying to fix me now with support ,im ex military and been said i got complexed PTSD and depression but i feel so empty and alone without her and just feel like there is no future for me and don't connect to people and find it hard to make friendships .sorry this is a bit of a rant and all over the place but i allmost took my life before and feel im slipping down that hole again