Filthy and disgusting

[Mimino]

I feel so ugly and disgusting, I'm skinnier now because all the food they make repulses me. I look like a skeleton. I feel like a gross monster anyhow, I just want to be touched kindly. A grasp of the hand or tap on the shoulder feels amazing, like I'm still a human being. What's worse is that now I'm seen as more attractice from my face, my clothes, my hair. I worry that if people could see my chest though they would despise it. I also wish I loved instead of lusted after, to dedicate myself to a person and their body, but all I do is consume. That's a problem with any sexuality lacking love, the partner doesn't care for you in your entirety, but is merely using your body. It's painful, I have bruises and scars on me because of a reckless sexuality. Can't anyone have us men be tender instead of being "studs"? Why do we have to be rough? Now I'm disgusted by women's bodies because of that, I feel like I'm nothing more than an object with my chasing instinct abused, abused by those women I dared to let take hold my mind and body.

 

[Congratsbaby]

I feel so ugly and disgusting, I'm skinnier now because all the food they make repulses me. I look like a skeleton. I feel like a gross monster anyhow, I just want to be touched kindly. A grasp of the hand or tap on the shoulder feels amazing, like I'm still a human being. What's worse is that now I'm seen as more attractice from my face, my clothes, my hair. I worry that if people could see my chest though they would despise it. I also wish I loved instead of lusted after, to dedicate myself to a person and their body, but all I do is consume. That's a problem with any sexuality lacking love, the partner doesn't care for you in your entirety, but is merely using your body. It's painful, I have bruises and scars on me because of a reckless sexuality. Can't anyone have us men be tender instead of being "studs"? Why do we have to be rough? Now I'm disgusted by women's bodies because of that, I feel like I'm nothing more than an object with my chasing instinct abused, abused by those women I dared to let take hold my mind and body.

You can be anything you want to be but it's not that simple

Sending hugs

 

[Suyon]

Maybe your body and mind are asking for a break from this cycle of emptiness. Less people using you, less need to prove something, more care for yourself, safer people around you, more genuine affection. You deserve to be loved as a whole person, not just seen in fragments.

And please, try to take care of your body too. Not eating because everything feels disgusting can slowly destroy you. Your body is not your enemy. It’s trying to survive alongside you.