Well I decided to finally register here even though I'm not entirely sure if I belong here.
I'm 18 years old and I've been struggling with different stuff throughout my life which has resulted in me now being fairly emotionless, little to no compassion for others, I would not care if I for some reason had to kill another person and I basically would just prefer to die and the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I fear the consequences if I for some reason survive and the physical pain a suicide would require.
Everything started when I was about 5-6 years old when my stepbrother told me he wanted to kill me while he held a knife to my throat. After that several other things have happened and the dark stranger in me has slowly grown in size and it still is growing, but I don't think i will ever be able to stop it and no amount of drugs or therapy will "fix" me. Now I wear a "mask" wherever I go to fit in, faking happiness, sadness, grief and it's tiring...
That's me in a nutshell I guess.
PS: Before anyone thinks I'm some sort of psychopath who wants to kill people, I'm not, I just wouldn't care if I for some reason had to.
I'm 18 years old and I've been struggling with different stuff throughout my life which has resulted in me now being fairly emotionless, little to no compassion for others, I would not care if I for some reason had to kill another person and I basically would just prefer to die and the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I fear the consequences if I for some reason survive and the physical pain a suicide would require.
Everything started when I was about 5-6 years old when my stepbrother told me he wanted to kill me while he held a knife to my throat. After that several other things have happened and the dark stranger in me has slowly grown in size and it still is growing, but I don't think i will ever be able to stop it and no amount of drugs or therapy will "fix" me. Now I wear a "mask" wherever I go to fit in, faking happiness, sadness, grief and it's tiring...
That's me in a nutshell I guess.
PS: Before anyone thinks I'm some sort of psychopath who wants to kill people, I'm not, I just wouldn't care if I for some reason had to.
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