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I lost this past 2 / 3 weeks 20 pounds. Really I dont understand it, why is this going so slowly I start eating at 5 pm, when I'm back from work, just some soup. Than we have dinner, going to the toillet and throw up. Than again nothing. Use 2 diet pills a day, walk 3 hours a day. Really why is this going so slowly Do I need to eat less, use more diet pills, more excercise. Probaly more excercise, but I fucking hate that God damn, maybe I will just take 3 pills a day and eat less Ok ok I'll do some excercises before bed time :dry: Fucking hell I need to loose this fat, I look so awfull, horrible, blegh :puke:
Uhm..ok..relax blub, see it on the positive sight, you're not gaining anymore and you havent had the past 2 weeks a binge attack. But still you're fat, you're ugly, you're fat, a loser, you're fat, you do everything wrong, you're fat, act normal, you're fat, go throw up, you're fat, you lazy ass, you're fat, you're fat, look at you, you're fat, iew, you're fat, no one wants you, you're fat, fat, fat, fat. Sorry, this is just going through my mind all day long for the last 8 years. I say worser things than that, but its better if I dont say that. What the fuck am I rambling about. Its probaly really vague if you read this. So you dont have to answer. I just needed to tell this. I should make a blog or journal, instead of this :dry:
Fuck... I'm such a loser
Uhm..ok..relax blub, see it on the positive sight, you're not gaining anymore and you havent had the past 2 weeks a binge attack. But still you're fat, you're ugly, you're fat, a loser, you're fat, you do everything wrong, you're fat, act normal, you're fat, go throw up, you're fat, you lazy ass, you're fat, you're fat, look at you, you're fat, iew, you're fat, no one wants you, you're fat, fat, fat, fat. Sorry, this is just going through my mind all day long for the last 8 years. I say worser things than that, but its better if I dont say that. What the fuck am I rambling about. Its probaly really vague if you read this. So you dont have to answer. I just needed to tell this. I should make a blog or journal, instead of this :dry:
Fuck... I'm such a loser