So I figured I have not used any database space on this forum in a while. I have been finding it difficult to find the words to help console others on here. So I have just been lurking. Anyway, tonight for some reason I cannot fall asleep. I keep on thinking and having another one of my suicidal fantasies.
Really this one comes from me being curious. So my plan would be simple really I would put a sign on my garage door that says "Suicide In Progress Do Not Disturb". Then close the garage door making sure the opener is on the other side. Then I would get into my car, start-up a stopwatch, then start my car. I wonder if anyone would save me or take my note seriously? I would of course do this during a time when I know people would be walking past my garage. I would wonder who would push the button?
You see because I am a computer guy and have all sorts of fun technology. I could do all sorts of things to get peoples attention. For instance, after 2 hours I could have my phone send a text message to my family saying they should see if I am still alive or not. That would be fun since I never know when my mom is going to be out-of-town and my sisters live in different parts of the country.
I could also set up a surveillance camera. That way I could record how many people just blissfully drove by or walked by. It would be a wonderful study no? Hell I could have my family sell it to the news. What fun it would be right? I mean the worst thing that could happen would be I keep living right?
Anyway, hopefully this will help me sleep a bit. I have no intention of finding out the answer to this question anytime soon. I need to enjoy the results of my personal training for at least another year before I do something like that . Maybe I won't have a garage next year. Who knows, either way I just need to get this fantasy out of my head. That way I can be less sleep deprived.
Really this one comes from me being curious. So my plan would be simple really I would put a sign on my garage door that says "Suicide In Progress Do Not Disturb". Then close the garage door making sure the opener is on the other side. Then I would get into my car, start-up a stopwatch, then start my car. I wonder if anyone would save me or take my note seriously? I would of course do this during a time when I know people would be walking past my garage. I would wonder who would push the button?
You see because I am a computer guy and have all sorts of fun technology. I could do all sorts of things to get peoples attention. For instance, after 2 hours I could have my phone send a text message to my family saying they should see if I am still alive or not. That would be fun since I never know when my mom is going to be out-of-town and my sisters live in different parts of the country.
I could also set up a surveillance camera. That way I could record how many people just blissfully drove by or walked by. It would be a wonderful study no? Hell I could have my family sell it to the news. What fun it would be right? I mean the worst thing that could happen would be I keep living right?
Anyway, hopefully this will help me sleep a bit. I have no intention of finding out the answer to this question anytime soon. I need to enjoy the results of my personal training for at least another year before I do something like that . Maybe I won't have a garage next year. Who knows, either way I just need to get this fantasy out of my head. That way I can be less sleep deprived.
