Hi
@Jayjay289 . I'm nervous to answer. It's sometimes dependent on whether I have health insurance or not. But to answer your question,
1) it's when I wasnt working a regular job on the books and I could barely get out of bed. Literally, I could see things with a gray gauze over it. I envied people in buried in graveyards.
I remember feeling so distraught and helpless over my choices and how to dig myself out. I was put into the hospital twice. Once for trauma, once not by my own doing but by the therapist.
2) I think one is so far beyond helpsometimes, its hard to take action. That's why suicide seems like the only feasible option.
3) I have a balance now
@Jayjay289 only because the years have by, 10 around, and I stopped putting myself in harm's way. I still struggle and my relationships still strained. Therapy is still an issue due to work schedule, but I'd rather work a legit job and support myself and daughter than go to therapy, so I try to have a balance. Also I'm blessed with a good medicine combo to manage my diagnoses.