hi..need advise

[eih]

:huh: uh... I really don't want to get counclers involved.. I dislike them... maybe if I tell him not to get them involved he wont say...

thats good they're at least sorta trained for this kinda thing

 

[eih]

DAMMIT>.. I freaking hate myself:sad: I chickened out and didnt mention any thing to him,.. I hate myself I cant even help myself:sad: :sad: :sad: :sad:

 

[Marshmallow]

im sure their be other chances to tell him hun

 

[eih]

... probably.. I plan on tellign him tomorrow cause I feel liek I'm going to explode if I don't tell some one.. I'll probably just chicken out again

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

:grouphug:



It'll be okay.






:flowers:

 

[eih]

..... I gained up enough courage to go to his room during lunch today and he wasn't there

 

[Marshmallow]

awwwww :hug: well at least you got that part out of the way, going to the room will be easier now, just gotta wait for the right time :hug:

 

[eih]

:unsure: guess so.. thx

 

[Marshmallow]

hope it works out for ya tomorrow :hug: lets know how you do :hug:

 

[eih]

alright... ..

 

[eih]

omg.. it may seem like I'm just making up a bunch of lame excuses... which I probably am subconsiously .. but today during the first break I was once again ready to tell him.. and I went to his room and there's a little sign on his door that said "tzar is preparing for chemical warfare, please be patient and dont enter" I was like... uhhhhhhhhh ok then... then I came back to his class when the bell rung and every1 was waiting outside the door.. then we waited for awhile.. then all of a sudden his door opened and alot of gas came out and we're all like wtf is that smell :huh: then my teacher comes out with a gas mask on and a full like gas protection suit.. and we're all like :laugh: :laugh: omg.... so.. yeah... we're learning about chemical warfare... adn apparantly my teacher is crazy

ok pointless story really:laugh:

 

[Marshmallow]

loooool made me smile :smile:, thanks lol

 

[eih]

lol it did wow

soooo... open house was tonight.. I'LL FINALLY TELL HIM TOMORROW... need to promise that to myself :huh:

 

[eih]

:unsure: I finally told him today.. it all went so fast I cant really remember.. but uhm after like shaking and studdering.. I finally spit out that I was suicidal... then... uh I think he said he needed to take me to the councler... I told him please no I hate the counclers... then he said please lemme take u to the counclers...then he took me out of the room.. I was like... about to fall over.. so he kinda helped me down to the counclers office... he was talking to me on the way there.. like uhmm life will get better no matter whats goin on right now... and he's like thanks for coming to me... then I'm just like.. there shaking.. and I think he kinda hugged me on the way down:blink: ..then I finally got down to the counclers.. and uhh he stayed there for a while.. then he had to go back to class.. and the councler.. uhmm I had to talk to her for almost the whole lunch.. it sucked... she asked me why and crap... and I was so scared... then THEY ACTUAlLY CALLED MY PARENTS DAMMIT... so I come home... and my dad seems to be like... uhh ur going to a psycogist... right now I really really dont wanna talk to them....and I havnt even seen my mom yet...:huh:

 

[Marshmallow]

im glad you had enough courage to tell him :hug: how do you feel about telling him, better or worse? feel it was a mistake or glad you did it?

 

[eih]

I'm kinda really mad my councler told my parents everything I said...

but ... I guess all in all.. I'm glad I told him.. he was more understanding and stuff then I though..

 

[Marshmallow]

good, im glad you told him, the thing is with telling the counsellers, its illegal for them not to for anyone under 18, so they had to do it otherwise they could be in major trouble. But im proud that you told him :hug:

 

[eih]

oh I didnt know that about counclers:huh:

:hug: thanks

 

[eih]

soo... just for kinda an update thingy... on how it went the day after I told him.. he pulled me out into the hall as soon as i got into class.. said a few things like asking how the talk with the counclers went and stuff.. he's being really nice & understanding about it so I'm really glad I told him