How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

i'm doing great today. i finallly got enough edibles this weekend. i stretched 1 bar for over 3 months. so these 1000mg bars i break into 50mg each or 100mg each. i took a 100mg piece and pain went low and i slept the best i have in months if not years. i love the effect the 100mg has but a drawback it makes me a bit high, but still a great trade off. funny that now i'm an elder i try to avoid being high and as a teen i loved it lol

mike

 

[AvidFan]

I had to dose diazepam to calm me down. It's been strange week or so. Am waiting on the rain for my friend telling myself it's these things that are important. Little errors shouldn't matter in the grand scheme of things. I hope I get a bit hungrier by the time my friend gets out of work 😲

 

[Aurelia]

Now there's an issue with my courseroom online... feels like everything is hitting me all at once. I have an issue with my stomach right now, trying to clear a bowel obstruction, and my period of course happens to come at this time. Then the school thing. And my husband is being stubborn because he doesn't like texting and I don't like calling. My family are treating me like some puppet they want to have full control of. So how am I? I don't know. How would you be in these circumstances?

I'm watching the show The Chosen, about Jesus Christ. It's a great show and gives me some sense of solace.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

you should always use
the brace if you have issues. remember pain is a lot easier to prevent than to treat. i hope you enjoy your new job

mike....

Thanks. I realized my desk setup is part of the problem and I will wear the braces

 

[Holding my breath]

Tired and a little low, a little empty and lost. Just need to sleep.

 

[1964dodge]

Tired and a little low, a little empty and lost. Just need to sleep.

i hope you can sleep well tonight

mike....

 

[HappyKitty]

So cute i love it when my kitties eat breakfast with me.😸
Also my meds probably is giving me break from grieving.
Im usually never ok night and morning😂

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I feel guilty about not disclosing information to my mother about our finances. I am 54 and have supported myself since I was 19.

Why on earth would I feel guilty? It's simply none of her business and just because she is nosy doesn't mean I have to satisfy her curiosity. And she always takes everything I say and twists it and phones my brother to gossip with misinformation.

 

[AvidFan]

I feel OK. I could kick myself for missing an important meeting today but it's done and I've sent apologies, I'll just have to see what happens.

I enjoyed my meal out tonight. Not been out in a long time.

So a mixed day, I'll double check my diary from now on. Am fortunately feeling better from the throat/chest thing so it didn't take too long.

It's quite cool out - unfortunately my house seems to have trapped all the hot air from the heatwave that is now gone 😲

 

[AvidFan]

I feel guilty about not disclosing information to my mother about our finances. I am 54 and have supported myself since I was 19.

Why on earth would I feel guilty? It's simply none of her business and just because she is nosy doesn't mean I have to satisfy her curiosity. And she always takes everything I say and twists it and phones my brother to gossip with misinformation.

Parents know how to push buttons because often they're the ones who put them there!

 

[HappyKitty]

I feel guilty about not disclosing information to my mother about our finances. I am 54 and have supported myself since I was 19.

Why on earth would I feel guilty? It's simply none of her business and just because she is nosy doesn't mean I have to satisfy her curiosity. And she always takes everything I say and twists it and phones my brother to gossip with misinformation.

Sorry your mum dismissed you like that, I relate. 🤗

 

[HappyKitty]

That feeling of being pressured to protect family and being the eldest child.

 

[AvidFan]

Fed up to start the day. The person I missed meeting with yesterday hasn't replied to my text or email. I was at pains to be apologetic and explain how it happened, but they've ignored me. Not sure what the worst outcome could be, as it's an external client I could get in some trouble if they decide to kick up a fuss. It was an honest mistake, I'm human and make the odd mistake, I've said I'm sorry and offered to re-book any time, but seems I'm expected to never be ill and be infallible. Then again maybe they just aren't bothered about rescheduling. The only 3 other times this happened in the last 10 years everyone was Ok about it, suppose my luck ran out.

 

[AvidFan]

Just feeling anxious at the moment. I can't even get on with some (new) work to distract myself as I'm anxious I'll get carried away and forget something important or that I'll just get everything wrong as I've had no feedback so far, and apparently this corporate has a strike system nobody understands and you can get fired without warning 😲

 

[foreverforgotten]

i'm sorry that you are overwhelmed. procratination sucks, i get that way sometimes. maybe if you could get a little ahead on things you won't feel so overwhelmed . then hopefully your sense of dread and hopelessness can be improved

mike....

I think it's too late to get ahead.. but I will try my damndest to hang on..

 

[Gonz]

I was looking at some old photos. Just seeing Jessica’s handwriting on the back of one was enough to get me crying yet again. Surprising how raw a seven year old wound can still be.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I was looking at some old photos. Just seeing Jessica’s handwriting on the back of one was enough to get me crying yet again. Surprising how raw a seven year old wound can still be.

I got upset seeing my Dad's handwriting and he died 24 years ago.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Another night of crappy sleep. I hope this wears off soon. Admittedly it was hot in the place last night. @AvidFan - we're having the same issue with it being hot inside despite the main heat wave being gone.

 

[AvidFan]

I was looking at some old photos. Just seeing Jessica’s handwriting on the back of one was enough to get me crying yet again. Surprising how raw a seven year old wound can still be.

I got upset seeing my Dad's handwriting and he died 24 years ago.

Things often get me this way as well.

 

[AvidFan]

Shattered so I'm in bed hoping for a sleep. Will take day off new job tomorrow and back to normal job as seem to have shaken off the plague! Goodnight and love to all on SF ❤️❤️❤️