How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Harrow]

I am feeling a little rocky coming off this med. Don't feel like myself although it was worse earlier. Did just take half a clonazepam tablet to ease my anxiety. Also my lovely boy kitty has followed me out to the living room and is curled beside me. If I get up and down during the night he always comes with me. I love him to bits.

Awww I love the kitty. I am sorry about you meds, I had to come off mine about two months ago (an anti-depressant and a mood stabilizer) and it was very sudden one day I just had no choice so no tapering off or anything. And for the first two maybe three weeks where hell, I could not close my eyes without violent flashing images, I could not sleep and It was a nightmare. But then the sysmptoms went away and I was okay, I am still not back on them, and I am doing alright.
So just stick too it Lady and you will pass this rough this patch and if you need support SF is always here for you and I am as well

 

[Harrow]

I feel lost and alone, but then again I usually do this time of night. Having my sleep schedule all wonky sucks.

I am also upset about a situation with a neighbor. This dear woman is 80 years old, has cancer (in remission at present) and is in financial hardship. Took her to a food bank yesterday to help. Food stamps (SNAP/EBT) are a joke, its like $30 a month. There are programs to help with things BUT they require intensive online applications and jumping through hoops. She isn't able and it stresses her out to watch me try to do these things for her. Life sucks.

Angie I am really sorry about your neighbour, I really hope someone can help her. And I will pray a little for her, if that is okay?
If things get really bad, maybe I can also try help a little if it comes to that. Though I will need a little time to earrn some more, my family costs me a bloody fortune, but no one deserves to suffer

Also I am really sorry you feel lost at night, but SF is here for you, no one is lost here

 

[HappyKitty]

my mind works so slow 😂 maybe its just been me. my parents came bck for a while and is helping and planning to move house before Nov. The search for it yano, since inflation is getting absolutely high in a way its $6K/month to stay here so we gotta move out. I argued that they denied we stayed in the west cause my fav cousins and friends are there- I know I can help them- In the end.... I dont care and just let them do their job. My energy burst out quick. Cant catch myself.

 

[Angie]

Thank you @Angie

I got my script. I feel so relieved. I was in a bad way, but I know I will be OK now.

That is great news!

 

[Pebble mouse]

That is great news!

Thanks

 

[Windhover]

@Angie I would like to repeat what @Harrow said so well, that is that no one is lost here.

It makes me feel terrible that elderly people are so disrespected tnat they're expected to survive (?!) on only 30 usd worth of food a month.

 

[Windhover]

@Pebble mouse Great to read of you feeling better. I hope this is the start of a much improved wellness. Also I hope that the weirdly high heat there backs off.

 

[Windhover]

I'm needing to heal from some things, need to get my brain off of certain thought loops, and the nightmares leaking into my life again.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

@Angie I would like to repeat what @Harrow said so well, that is that no one is lost here.

It makes me feel terrible that elderly people are so disrespected tnat they're expected to survive (?!) on only 30 usd worth of food a month.

In Canada we have a seniors' supplement that is based on income--for instance if your pension is higher you qualify for less of a supplement. I'm assuming that's why the woman is only receiving $30 a month in food stamps - not that that's what she is expected to be able to pay for a month's groceries on. I mean, the cutoffs for the supplement here are ridiculously low for anyone who has to pay rent, so it's still ludicrous, but not quite as ludicrous as thinking that you can survive on $30 worth of food a month.

 

[Astrid78]

Sad

 

[Windhover]

dizzy, over sensititve, weak and somewhere, I am angry & I want to be past all this crap

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

dizzy, over sensititve, weak and somewhere, I am angry & I want to be past all this crap

Is this a physical illness or emotion-based? Either way I sure hope you can move past it. It's not fair you are suffering.

 

[TragicReality]

I'm tired. But I got my son to the doctor. He wont go inpatient but at least he got a prescription for an antidepressant. I'll be having him back in my car for the next couple weeks, because things can get worse when you first start on them. I can't suggest what antidepressant I think would help better, so I'll trust my docs judgement and hope this gets him out of his anxiety and depression a bit with time. It's mainly situational. If he wouldn't refuse help it would be easier. This is a huge accomplishment though, I've tried for years to get him to the doctor and accept some form of help. I'm hopeful. Then hopefully he'll either want to work again or if it doesn't get better, I've suggested some help from the govt but it's not easy to get. I know the system, if he went inpatient he'd have a psychiatrist and be better diagnosed. One step at a time. Hugs to everyone. I don't like using the like thing, but it's my way of saying I read your post and I wish you better days ahead.

 

[Windhover]

This is a huge accomplishment though

I never know wherher the like button is good or not.

I'm really glad to read this.

 

[Windhover]

Is this a physical illness or emotion-based? Either way I sure hope you can move past it. It's not fair you are suffering.

hug

My self is trying for a path past someome's influence. To be honest, I should've seen it was chalk and cheese. Since I partially complied, now I have my work cut out.

 

[HappyKitty]

Its just weird. I bet its my grieving that doesnt let me be randomly angry at someone. Prolly be thinking "do I mean what I said? is that jealousy mean anything?" Just felt my aunt wouldnt want that in a way. It confuse me.

 

[HappyKitty]

Parents will never listen to you one period. I kinda know where I get my outbursts from, my dad of course🙄

 

[Road to Nowhere]

Sad

I hope the sadness fades away soon Astrid78.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm tired. I've been working 2 jobs and it's great from a financial perspective but the circles under my eyes and general feeling of trying to push through a brick wall suggests I need to take a step back. I got kicked from the project I was enjoying (or it stopped, they never tell you!) so I guess the time is right to pull back into coast mode rather than full speed ahead. I'm planning/saving for a full 2 weeks off at Christmas. It's usually a rubbish time to take a break because all the taxes are due shortly after, but this time I hope to have the taxes banked ready and enjoy the time off as I really need it, it's a good few months off but will be here before I know it - the Christmas stuff is already in the shops, it will be replaced briefly by Halloween stuff and all that, before every self will probably be tinsel and biscuits.

 

[Aurelia]

I spent a whole day with my nephew, and that was awesome. I swear he was smiling and maybe even laughing a bit, even if he is only a month old.

I didn't know you had a nephew that young. That's awesome.